for ur sake!!!

the red carpet.

2009-05-26T19:37:00.002+08:00

Announce the re-opening of anti-freako.blogspot.com !

now that exams are all over,
lets go crazy !

but something's bothering me.
indeed money makes the world go round,
its financial issues which prevents me from staying out all day long.

after all its hard to save up,
its even harder to spend our hard-to-come-by savings.

maaaaaaan, this is tough.

anyway i still have 185 days currently to train as hard as possible,
to make a difference,

to win the north zone championship at least.
i want that hall of fame in the ISH !

well it wun't go easy on myself this time.

firstly, i have to own 3/5's ass in captain ball first.
hhaha all the best yo.

till next time (:

something new to me.

2009-05-02T17:48:00.002+08:00

so glad to be home right now,
indeed home sweet home yeah.

actually wenjie's house was quite awesome,
except the fact that he doesn't like to on the air con.

and we had to survive the hot weather under this fan
that looks like its going to drop anytime.

And, i packed my stuffs to study and laptop,
so i could sign on to msn and chat when im tired.

in the end when we got there.

ivan: eh you guys not studying meh ?

wenjie : oh they all know we not studying, i told you we're studying
so you will come.

yes i was conned to stay over just to play.
and they occupied every com to play dota, including mine !

was pretty much tempted to try just one game.
its hard to resist temptations :o

but i studied quite a lot, or rather i was the only one studying.
kevin, junxi, wei long didnt bring any study materials.

i feel dumb.
haha anyway we stayed up till 6am in the morning,
i was studying most of the time wahaha (:

i only played 2 games which don't last long.

the fan made really weird noises when we're trying to sleep,
sounded like the screws are coming off.

anyway his mum made us study today till 3pm.
which was a good thing because finally nothing can distract me (:

but seriously the hot weather made studying pretty tedious.
and i found out,

we will definately not go hungry at wenjie's house. haha.

the art of patience.

2009-04-30T18:25:00.006+08:00

today's english paper seemed pretty easy,
used quite a lot of colourful words that might

actually help in scoring better.

anyway theres something that
seriously bothering me.

therefore i shall make it clear once again that,
im studying because i want to study,

i want to reach janelle's target ! (:

NOT because i want to compare and make people depress and stuff.
neither do i have the thoughts to win or anything,

i don't even feel like comparing.

a quote from the ping pong show seems right,
where theres competitiveness, there won't be happiness.

so yeah im not comparing.

stroll with rhythms

2009-04-29T19:19:00.004+08:00

whats up guys,
im here to catch my breath after straight few days of
hardcore studying!

and the biggest accomplishment is,
i finished all 6 chapters of physics !

actually its more than just 6 mindmaps,
after every mindmap, accompanies questions on that topic,

MCQS, short answer question and free response questions (:

ivan proudly shout out to all,
his ready for physics!

haha now im going to move on to geography !

major countdown !
still got 1 week to exams !

and 1 month till holiday.
seriously, i cant wait .

totally need a break yo (:

jiayou for tomorrow's english paper,
and of course the super long 'break'

or rather more intensive hours of studying.

at least friday we'll be able to stay up at wenjie's house.
maybe a new environment will be much more productive,

or maybe not? haha.

F9s or A1s ?
who cares,
im glad i studied

that felt great

2009-04-28T19:45:00.003+08:00

its been really long since it rained,
so was the cooling weather,

been quite a while since school wasn't so stuffy and all.
well, i felt quite productive.

actually i thought about it,
results really doesnt matter much.

at least look things are this angle,
ivan bothers to try. (:

and was definitely successful trying to gain a smile on mdm tey's face.
or rather mr lim is right,

a smart student isn't important,
someone who is willing to work hard worths the value.

haha neither am i trying to score higher than people,
even if im last in anderson,

im still top few hundred in Singapore rights ?
my parents are understanding enough to only request for me to do my best.

which i currently am.

Of course, good luck to those who rather procrastinate because they claim to be smarter.

i can't be bothered,
my aim is to reach up to janelle's expectations,
thats cool enough (:

Totally new me.

2009-04-27T21:17:00.002+08:00

lets all work hard for SA1 !
i cant post everyday recently as im really working hard (:

haha i will post my awe-inspiring mind maps for physics,
out of 6 chapters,

i completed 3 already (:
and every mindmaps, i completed difficult questions.

totally understand,
now i feel pretty confident.

i will continue to work hard,
to prove to those who looked down on me.

its my turn to look down on them.
and those who believed in me,

i will give them results :D

yeah jiayou !

i think that people who are slacking right now,
will start panicking when they know

ivan had long started revising already!

responses

2009-04-25T10:45:00.002+08:00

24 Apr 09, 23:48

Calvin: LOL@ the boonhow stuff. what a paikia
Ivan; haha its a scam! we did the paikia stuffs LOL

23 Apr 09, 22:00

Wei Lin: Your post very difficult to read sia. Words so big, so many spacings in between and have to scroll down like hell.
Ivan; noooooooo words are big so its easier to read ! dont be lazy wei lin, just scroll down !
I LOVE JANELLE TOO (:

23 Apr 09, 20:04

Colleen: ivan is liar!!! that's not what happen lar. how can i fall on my butt if i trip over gladwin's stuff? haha...dun believe him!!!
Ivan; rightssssssssss, so many people saw it -.-

23 Apr 09, 17:59

Janelle: HAhahha, Boon How the dragon rider. I think he'll suffer from abuses by Sarah. LOL! And I thought Boon How dont scold vulgarities. Seems like Sarah's really affecting alot.
Ivan; LOL power of love you know (: im turning retarded because of you too. hehe

21 Apr 09, 22:46

Wei Lin: Tagged, since I love janelle.
Ivan; hahah im going to learn from you again. ( tag again if you really love janelle )

20 Apr 09, 20:18

Bhlee: ....god
Ivan; hahha nice to see your scandalous stuff

20 Apr 09, 17:17

stella: YOU DAMN SLOW CAN. I PLAY VIWAWA UNTIL SIAN ALREADY..
Ivan; serious meh -.- i dont know leh. people intro de.

20 Apr 09, 14:34

liting: lols..-.-''
Ivan; what -.-

19 Apr 09, 22:24

Wei Lin: So lag! Viwawa was played like Sec1 or something. HAHA.
Ivan; LOL boon how intro de !

19 Apr 09, 16:32

Janelle: hahahhahah, LOL! You look funny with your curly hair last time.

19 Apr 09, 16:31

Janelle: OMG. You see how popular my blog is? I didnt even recommend and Yanting came here. HAHAHHAHAHA. Must take it that I win the competition, you're using my blog to advertise your blog.
Ivan; yeah la omg. i didnt know my hair was so curly sia. tsk. LOL and the competition shd be postpone due to SA1 (:

19 Apr 09, 16:03

yanting: i saw ur appeal on janelle's blog and came here to save ur counter (lik how i save ur spa). thanks lik man(:
Ivan; LOL im sure you came on your own accord !

19 Apr 09, 14:18

Damian: Eh your that photo funny sia. Like sleeping.
Ivan; LOL not funny, damn ugly -.-

19 Apr 09, 12:45

CHUISHAN: dont come find me abt tagging thing k HAHA!

19 Apr 09, 12:45

CHUISHAN: HAHA. i viewed your blog for like many many times already! but i didnt tag D HAHAHA.
Ivan; LOL yo. (:

18 Apr 09, 23:27

Fathi: Why you run!!!!!???? Ezan oso run man
Ivan; tell you le ma, have you quit too ?

18 Apr 09, 23:12

Wei Lin: TAGGED, pro. And finally you replied to tags.

Ivan; hahah yeah pro :] i reply when theres a lot la. come more often !

18 Apr 09, 21:42

Colleen: yay, 2/1!!! ask that kevin to organise badminton thing!!! i bet you miss me, haha kidding...
Ivan; you want the truth ? actually not, i rather not see you again HAHA

temporarily matters.

2009-04-25T10:41:00.002+08:00

i really shdn't be here right now,
instead i shd be mugging my ass off.

yeah im gone once i finish things here.

firstly, i had to stop blogging for a period of time after SA1,
because i dont want to score badly.

and i have a deal going on (:
janelle is my motivation of course!

quote of the week man,
don't do what you don't want people to do to you.

stop the childishness and grow up.
because you people are way to scary.

alrights man, im going to study physics now !
till next free time (:

short and sweet.

2009-04-21T19:26:00.002+08:00

hey just a short update before i start revising.
its really depressing to receive a score like that for physics,

i should buck up !

and for the bad things that i've done today,
i really feel guilty now.

to prevent karma from falling on me,
i shall hence make up for it.

and since SA1 is coming,
i shall therefore study !

so please understand that i might not be able to post as often (:

something funny to end this post,

YESTERDAY !
retarded colleen wanted to hit me on my forehead,

that for revenge actually,
because i like hitting people on the forehead as they are fringeless !

but yeah, she suffered retribution straight away.

after she hit me, she quickly made her escape.
but tripped over gladwin's books chair
and fell right smack on her butt

that accompanied a ' BANG' sound.

yeah this whole thing are not supposed to appear here.
but who cares (:

Its time Ivan woke up from his dream and work really hard,
to perform to his abilities !

to someone : "please tag if you think that im jealous because you like janelle. "

LOL

the un-fabulous

2009-04-20T16:48:00.002+08:00

taking naps in the afternoon seriously isn't something for me.
the thing is i can't sleep after bathing,

and i don't want to sleep without bathing. haha
yeah yeah im troublesome alrights.

anyway today's post will definitely be un-emo.

as there isn't common test starting from week 5 onwards !
lessons ended at 1.10.

which means we get to reach home earlier on mondays,
speaking of which,
i don't feel the monday blues today (:

but week 5 means extra lessons again, haix.

heres the interesting part of the post,
whereby it will be filled with other people's scandalous stuffs.
hehehe.

we spent the whole of history lesson talking about boonhow and sarah,
for dumbdumbs who don't know YET,
they are the most scandalous couple recently.

the weirdest in century too.
whereby boon how takes the female role.

they say sarah is the dragon,
and of course boon how is the dragon rider.

sounds right ?
think twice.

the whole thing goes like this,
sarah (dragon ) takes a ride on boon how ( the rider )
there you have it. (:

actually everything's quite retarded today.
had recess and moey was seated right beside me,
i was damn afraid his saliva might just fly out of his food-filled mouth.

anddddd i was right -.-
ended up something more disgusting flew out.

it was his bun with saliva.
surely an appetite spoiler, gross.

maths was retarded too,
i guess i ended up being too bored,
so i borrowed a paper from boon how and started the 'window live messenger'

haha and i plan to post everything here.
if you want to have a good laugh, continue reading (:

well whats a messenger without a display picture.

So..
- mine was a middle finger.

-boonhow's was his famous -o- face.

-gerald had his 'EMO' displayed

-damian had a picture of weilin which i drew LOL.
(but boon how suggested the girl to be wei lin. hehe

And the conversation went on !

Ivan; hey im bored! lets chat on 'window live messenger' !
boon; ok, lets add gerald and damian!
gerald; hey! im bored too ! school sucks...
Damian; Eh why got wei lin there !!

Ivan;10 more min ! im going to post about this with boon how's many scandalous stuff !
*ivan just sent a nudge *

Boon; F_ _ K sia. im tired.
Gerald; Nice word BH ! you're on the way to the path of a pai-kia
Damian; LOL boon how. clean as whistle. this topic difficult la.

Ivan;yeah boon how is turning into a full time pai-kia, other than watching porn
and buying pirated DVDs, now vulgar sia.
Boon; Eh not happy ah! fight la, gerald outside 3/3 after school !
Gerald ; F#*K you la ! Ch@o Ch+x B@!. I'll get ivan as backup.
Damian; come on la, we 3 on 1 the boon guy. he kneel down give us chocolate (:

Ivan; Bell ring ! Beat boon how!
Boon; Mummy ! i'll get my mother here.
Gerald; walao such a f@g. yea bell ring le. *crack knuckles * (:
Damian; the time has come..

Boon; i'll show you my power ! " transform"

-End-

hahah now you know how retarded a bunch of burly guys can get. LOL

oh i found out another thing !
(boon how's scandalous stuff number 6 )

do you know boon how slept with his dog on the floor yesterday night.

Ivan; why don't want sleep in the room ? -.-

Boon; Oh i watch show until 1am + then still need walk short distance than
reach bedroom. so i just sleep on the floor, very convenient.

this is a real life story from boon how himself.

well thats it from today.
come back for more boon how live in action ! (:

No big deal.

2009-04-19T20:50:00.002+08:00

i just found out i had bruises in different parts of my body.

from the hardest part, my knee, which
was bruised when i dive for the shuttle yesterday.

to the softest part, my butt, which i doubt i had fell down.
but i wondered why the flesh couldn't take the impact.

yes i admit i have a rather big ass.

anyway got hooked up with chinese chess recently,
tried out this new web which someone recommended.

www.viwawa.com

for people who are interested in chess, try it !

thanks CHEO AUNTIE very listening to my nonsenses (:

the whole thing is called off, its nothing.

2009-04-19T18:27:00.004+08:00

global warming is definitely getting on my nerves,
the constantly increasing temperature seriously boils my blood.

is Earth still a safe planet is live in ? haha.
well i learned that not working on weekends isn't that good after all.

its either eat or sleep,
because my mum had to work on my laptop.
neither do i have the mood to study.

thats a pretty bad though, come to think of it,
tomorrow is week 5 already. time to buck up ivan!

yesterday was pretty awesome though.
went for badminton with boon how, larry , weilin and qi hua.

met two sec 1 boys from some secondary school,
i can only say that looks are deceiving alrights.

those two boys were the height of qihua and only age 12 ( birthday has yet to arrive )
but their badminton skills were beyond words man.

enjoyed myself because its been a long time since i worked out,
my abs is drifting really far away now. :(

anyway we left at about 6 +
i really couldn't make it to bryan's tuition.
im really sorry girls ! i know you all are upset about it :x

well,many stuffs made me felt uneasy recently.
it bothers me so much that

im starting to suffer from insomnia.

perhaps the anesthetic worn off,
because the pain is coming back slowly

but for a different reason.

ivan is still cheerful though, i just needed somewhere or someone to pour my sorrows,
after the sorrow bucket is emptied,
the smile will still be there. (:

oh yeah i forget to mention,
boon how is willingly to do ANYTHING for vertical growth.

haha i remember how i emptied the
whole bottle of powdery cheese on his seafood fried rice.

looks pretty disgusting but yet he finished the whole thing,
the plate was sparkling shiny after his done.

haha i should have taken picture of the madness.
thats it, come back for more boon how's secret.

till next time (:

responses

2009-04-18T08:58:00.000+08:00

18 Apr 09, 01:37

Fathi: Hey hey, my schedule is the same as u now. Save for sunday, i work only on saturdays. Wahahaha
Ivan; YO fathi, i played M.I.A today. i guess i wun be returning to long john anymore. keep in touch brother, i don't want to lose a good friend. you and ezan don't go running off without me. hahah if your looking for any jobs tell me (: ask my number from ezan.

11 Apr 09, 14:34

Janelle: Oh, and I cried and sit on the floor when I wanted the teletubbies toy when I was young. But my parents gave in to me, unlike yours. HAHA!

11 Apr 09, 14:33

Janelle: Good thing you understood what I told you. Well, I mean you're "more experienced in relationships" whattt.
Ivan; haha from the start when i decide to tell the whole world about it, im already mentally prepared (: and my parents gave in to me too ! i was just making things up hahah. you silly ass :]

17 Apr 09, 19:20

Wei Lin: Thanks! And are you staring at your blog?

17 Apr 09, 18:19

Wei Lin: You want tags, then go tag people. Because normally girls will return tag one. Haha.
Ivan: you retarded ass. hahah forever going around the bush then brings things back to yourself. you just want me to tag yours right (: and HAHA im staring at my blog ratings.

16 Apr 09, 22:54

Janelle: LOL, You forgot to mention that you were also styling your hair with Damian's banana-flavoured gel that's spoilt.
Ivan; LOLL shut up, im not so vain ! anyway that gel isn't spoilt i think.

16 Apr 09, 21:47

CHUISHAN: Hi. haha! does it make the rating to 30 now? dont get depressed haha!
Ivan; LOL though it doesnt add up to 30 but every person counts ! thanks (:

16 Apr 09, 17:52

liting: lols for qustiong 49 ii prefer uu say u live wif ur family without marrying them..-.-''
Ivan; haha then it wldnt be unique ma (:

16 Apr 09, 14:37

Wei Lin: Yay congratulations for sitting with Janelle today. I know you loved it.
Ivan; okay la actually (: cause janelle was nagging at me to pay attention the whole time. but yeah i love it LOL.

15 Apr 09, 21:30

Pei: cut*

15 Apr 09, 21:30

Pei: You won't die mysteriously because I am going to be in forensic science and I will cu up your intestines and find out how you died HEHEH.
Ivan; wah -.- i think i should write a letter explaining how i die before i lose my last breath, because you this silly auntie will make my death even more mysterious. hahah

15 Apr 09, 21:20

yanting: LOL my cousin is called alexandra and she's a girl!
Ivan; that name is unisexual ! and i was just writing what comes to mind. haha

15 Apr 09, 21:13

Janelle: Haha, you actually did the quiz tooo. IT REALLY KILLS TIME, too much in fact. LOL, how romantic can kissing someone in the truck be. I think it's more dumb than romantic.
Ivan; yeah because it kills time. AND cant you tell the sacarasm in 'how romantic' haha you another retarded ass. *HUG*

15 Apr 09, 20:45

harshie: haha the quiz is funny at times and and i am surprised that u had the time to do such a long quiz even i would have freaked out haha
Ivan; hahah actually the quiz wasnt really made up of 111 question. i counted so many missing number. LOL

15 Apr 09, 15:51

siting: hello... (:
Ivan; yo sup (:

14 Apr 09, 21:40

Bryan: Sup man...haha hope ur life is better than mine right now. take it easy. tagged!
Ivan; hahah my life is always great. come back soon !

14 Apr 09, 21:19

rebecca: awwwww aren't you touched yu jun? haha the photo is er...............haha funny:D and TAGGED!
Ivan; hahha is this tag for me or yujun you ass (:

13 Apr 09, 19:26

Yi Ting: here is my blog ^_^

13 Apr 09, 19:26

Yi Ting: Tagged ^_^..still remember me bah...i know y eight stand for u..cos ivan tan. tan=8=0=egg...am i correct?..or wrong..>.
Ivan; yo yi ting, still playing maple ? hahah and thats not the reason why. its just because i like eight and my jersey number is 8. thats all LOL. LINKED.

13 Apr 09, 16:26

yujun: OMG!!! thanks but i dun like picture haha
Ivan; haha thats the best i can find (:

13 Apr 09, 16:04

Bhlee: and you are handsome!! ( my april's fool joke)

13 Apr 09, 16:03

Bhlee: eh yo ivan, you forced me here, now this is my unwilling, reluctant, sarcastic TAG.
Ivan; get lost -.- go watch your porn. hahha

12 Apr 09, 15:41

Wei Lin: Bleah, so you want the whole world to know? Hahaha I'll help you.
Ivan; no thanks ! the whole world knows already (:

Its too late.

2009-04-17T18:36:00.006+08:00

Happy Friday the 17th.

due to speech day,
we only got two periods today.

P.E went on as usual without MR. S,
because we managed to find a relieve teacher who was desperately looking for 4/3 LOL

since 4/3 was no where to be found,
we took the chance to request him to take us for P.E.

played captain ball !

although it was still as fun but 2/1 's captain ball was the best (:
at least larry was around to balance out the two teams,

yeah im just trying to emphasize that im tall. hehe

anyway as usual physic was crap.

school ended at 940 !
boon how, haoyu together with jasmine, jiayi and zoey
came over to my house.

boon how decided to tell us a secret,
its about the fact that he had more 100 P_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ DVDs
(just to show that its not PORN )

LOL yeah thats the whole point abt posting it here,
now its not a secret anymore.

that poor boy was sooooooooo afraid of being caught possessing it,
therefore he decided to hide the disc in the midst of

many karaoke song discs HAHA.

yeah im not going to tell you what we did,
it was totally awesomeeee (quite)

thats to keep you guys in suspense
and hopefully someone would use something valuable to exchange for that information (:

nah we didn't do anything wrong.

after that me, jiayi and jasmine went to have deserts, cut hair and home.

i was conned to buy a $5 ice-cream for them, damn.

the worst part was,
i never get to know the truth until its too late.

i hate it. :/

because i came upon this OMG !

just look at me,
i couldn't believe im that person man.

and no one ever told me i was horrible looking
LOLL.

quite fortunate though but
i rather know the truth damn -.-

so i will just lock myself at home,
or cover my head with a plastic bag.

what a tramautising memory !

hahah the differences between now and back then is HUGE.

Don't get my message ?
your dumb (:

Happy birthday welin, peiyan and justin once again !

-sidetrack-

sometimes i really don't like the idea of knowing the truth,
only after everything is in place,

and no-one or nothing will be able to change.

glide with the wind ?
yeah just leave the feather hanging on its own.

just like i always wondered how a huge pile of ice can keep someone warm,
totally illogical.

Its the day ; my day ; today.

2009-04-16T20:38:00.000+08:00

What's up, guys. Its thursday ! *screams*
other than friday and saturday, thursday can be counted as my favourite day of the week.

because we start our day with SEX TALK,
what a pity the lesson ended so quickly yet we enjoyed pretty much (:

envy hidhir who got to perform a skit with the oh-so-young teacher.
first look at him and i could tell immediately that
he was happy.

lucky boy. hehe
(P.S ; i will upload the video soon )
thanks to speech day, we've came to the end of week 4.
but i doubt I'll be able to get any rest though,
being packed with a tight schedule for tomorrow which starts from the moment sch ends.

thinking back, the fact that a student's life
is really much comfortable
prior to the number of holidays we get compared to adult's working life.

perhaps growing up faster became a nightmare to me.

teenagers should enjoy as much as they can,
thats one of the few commitments which i definitely would follow.

which brought me back regarding tomorrow,
hope that they will allow me to mess with boon how's xbox,

for a least one game.

depressing enough, in front of me stationed my X-box,
covered with estimated 5 cm of dust.

the thing is, i lost my controller IN MY CAR.
yes i can't find it. damn.

now im stuck with a X-box without controllers to play.
how bad can things get ?

anyway im quite proud of myself for being able to be much more productive than expected,
completed most of my over-due maths assignments,

which now leaves me with only geography.

being able to be seated next to Janelle during geography lesson,
yet still lazing around, daydreaming,

that shouldn't be the attitude,
i should/will change (:

meanwhile the 'big' 3s grew pretty bonded nowadays,
one of the factor that slowly takes the 'flirt' title off me.

should you not know,
'Big' 3s includes me, haoyu and boon how.

contradicting enough, i know.

conclusion for the week,
outcomes are sixty percent untrue usually,

we should look forward to everyday !

oh yeah, not forgetting.

Happy birthday Pearleen ! (16/4/09)

Happy Birthday Justin, Peiyan, Weilin ! (17/4/09)

have fun !

2009-04-15T20:37:00.002+08:00

the outcome seemed pretty obvious,
quizzes does not attract readers,

ended up having my sitemeter's daily average reader to fall drastically.
precisely why im here to do some mending.

today can be counted as one of the most
interesting non-holiday, school days.

having 3/4 of our lessons for today doing practically nothing.
awesome eh ?

thanks to inter-national friendship day.
which kinda remind me of vivian and anju :x

anyway was forced to fork out two bucks to try out food made by our scholar friends,
i still prefer our typical canteen food, honestly.

at least we learnt that wendy from our class could really sing well.
when she dress up,

its totally jaw-dropping!

basketball training was pretty tough in a way today,
serve me right for not exercising recently
and gorging plates after plates filled with food.

damn, i turning into a fat ass again.

and haoyu keep emphasizing on this logic,
whereby you would think that the girl you love have a nice fragant,
even though she might stink real bad.

was from the channel 8 show i guess.

but was proved quite right though.
hahah i won't say why :x

alrights, there's a friend in need,
i need to go off now.

when a friend is in need,
im definitely a friend indeed :]

Ask-a-thorn

2009-04-14T19:57:00.004+08:00

I'm bored without anything interesting to post.
but i came upon this quiz from JANELLE's blog (:

since its good to spice things up occasionally,
and the quiz seriously kills time.

why not ?

Here goes nothing.
1)Are you really ready for 111 questions?
i have a feeling i might get irritated half-way.

2) Was your last real relationship a mistake?
define whats real and whats not.

4) Who did you last say “I love you” to?
LOL i say that to any random girl when im feeling random. but JANELLE !

5) Do you regret it?
nah since she will give me that awkward smile that make her so cute :} haha

6) Have you ever been depressed?
duh, when my pimple doesn't subside.

8) Are you a boy or girl?
boy

9) What is your relationship status?
pre-attached situation

10) How do you want to die?
mysteriously

11) What did you last eat?
chicken drumstick rice/popcorn chicken/pear/chocolate
i think i need my exercise soon -.-

12) Played any sports?
yeah.

13) Do you bite your nails ?
after i wash them real clean.

14) When was your last physical fight?
whats a physical fight ?

15) Do you have an attitude?
no doubt about it.

16) Do you like someone?
haha the whole world knows (:

17) What is your real name?
Ivan Tan Zhi Xuan

[where's question 18]
oh nice joke, the question is wheres question 18. LOL

19) Are you gonna get high later ?
later as in tomorrow, yes

20) Do you hate anyone at the moment?
too mentally taxing to hate, i rather not.

21) Do you miss someone?
yeah, i think so.

22) Twirl or cut your spaghetti?
curly and spinny.

23) Do you tan a lot?
when anderson doesn't have a indoor sports hall. now im UV protected.

24) Have any pets?
does boon how count ? haha kidding (:

25) How exactly are you feeling?
boredddddddd, can someone pleeeease get online.

26) Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving?
once im in my car, I'll sleep seriously.

27) Ever made out in the bathroom?
No and never will i guess, too slippery accident might occur.

28) Would you take any of your exes back?
Its not up to me. but i won't look back.

29) Are you scared of spiders?
after so many years living with many in this house, why would i still be.

30) Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
can the chance be going to the future ?

31) Do you regret anything from your past?
lots.

32) What are your plans for this weekend?
I have to work. damn -.-

33) Do you want to have kids?
first i have to find the greatest women and together with me, we will create the best human being ever.

34) Did you ever kiss someone whose name starts with an M?
mother, when i was young.

35) Do you type fast?
Don't challenge me.

36) Do you have piercings? How many?
none.

37) Want any more?
what anymore, i don't have !

38) Can you spell well?
W-E-L-L, yeah here you go.

39) Do you miss anyone from your past?
Anyone that i will miss are still around me, present.

40) What are you craving right now?
marigold mango juice.

41) Ever been to a bonfire party ?
sorry, my english sucks.

43) Have you ever been on a horse?
nope not horses, elephants! a horse cant hold my weight a few years back.

44) Kissed someone in a pick up truck?
how romantic.

45) Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
yeah im sorry.

46) Have you ever been cheated on?
Not sure.

47) Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
aiyaaa im sorry. -.-

49) Would you live with someone without marrying them?
definitely not a guy, but if the girl don't mind (:

50) What should you be doing ?
Its kind of my off day.

51) What’s irritating you right now?
6 more years till im legal for everything.

52) Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt?
yes but i prefer to keep it as a nice memory (:

53) Does somebody love you?
haha there's this girl that i keep rejecting but she never did understand LOL.

54) What is your favorite colour ?
Black.

55) Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
yeah, in a rush.

57) Do you have trust issues?
i don't understand.

60. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
yeah we're like good friends !

62) Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you?
no comments.

63) Who was the last person you cried in front of?
No one.

64) Do you give out second chances too easily?
Im not sure myself, but i don't get angry easily.

65) Is it easier to forgive or forget?
Its easy to forgive AND forget.

66) Is this year the best year of your life?
When i finish my education, that year will be.

67) What was your child hood nickname?
"ah-bue" ( fatty in hokkien ) LOL

68) Have you ever walked outside completely naked?
I'll be in jail if i ever done such things.

70) Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
finally someone with the same mentality (:

71) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
I yawned once.

73) What is bothering you?
my rabbit can't stop biting my computer wires.

74) Have you ever been out of your province?
province.. ? errr..yeah.

75) Do you play the Wii?
too mature for such thing.

76) Are you listening to music right now?
apparently, im using my com in the living room.

77) Do you like Chinese food?
Im multi-racialist, no biased thinking, anything seems fine.

78) Do you know your father's b- day?
b-day ? birthday yes.

79) Are you afraid of the dark?
not afraid until mr. eu told us his stories -.-

80) Is cheating ever okay?
ever heard of white lie ? "white cheat" is okay too.

81) Are you mean?
not to myself.

82) Can you keep white shoes clean?
if i keep it in the box.

84) Do you believe in true love?
used too, not now. but one day i will find it.

88) Do you like the outside?
i prefer staying in.

89) Are you currently bored?
DUH.

90) Do you wanna get married?
YES. i think this question was asked before.

91) Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
If a boy calls me that, i will freak out.

92) Are you hungry?
after eating so many things ? are you nuts -.-

93) Have you ever made out for more than a half hour straight?
sorry, still virgin

94) What makes you happy?
I only know basketball keep me emotionless. i enjoy it when im upset.

95) Would you change your name?
too what ? alexandra seems okay. LOL

96) Ever been to Alaska?
where ?

98) Do you watch the news?
rights.. -.-

99) What’ s your zodiac sign?
im getting irritated, is this finishing ?

100) Do you like Subway?
OH remind me of the footlong incident.

101) Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?
Yes.

[where's qn 102]
ahhh ass, this question again -.-

103) Do you talk like your friends?
how different can we get.

105) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them
yeah.

106) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?
haha i have many i think.

107) Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
Jasmine!

108) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
no thanks to a girlfriend who smokes.

109) Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
deep conversation ? as in ?

110) Favorite lyrics right now?
not sure but i like the song " your call "

111) Can you count to one milllion?
YES.

YES LA, im going crazy answering to many question at one go,
but as a form of training my patience,

its okay i guess.

at least one post thats not emo rights (:
alrights, get entertained !

A thing in the past

2009-04-13T16:17:00.003+08:00

Drained and exhausted,
i decide to give it a good thought.

only to realise all my attempts seem so futile,
its not easy or rather impossible to please everyone.

only someone with great characters will be able to achieve,
sorry for being such a disappointment,

i dun't have what it takes.

somehow i feel that i had changed,
not knowing whether its good or bad but im satisfied with the way things are now.

it might be about principles, it might be able being noble in character,
but for some reason, its kind of hard for me to comprehend.

maybe im just selfish, i want to be happy.
i feel more myself carrying on with the way it is now.

the fact that nobody is perfect is undeniable,
to ease things a little, i should therefore admit,

yes im not that good.

taking the opportunity to also express my thoughts,
i felt that we are drifting off.

things can never be the same anymore,
afterall we now belong to different cliques

and to prevent matters from being awkward,
its the nature of life.

well as much as how you feel that I've changed,
i do think in some way your different.

but i choose to respect who you are,
i wish you respect me too.

to briefly conclude a little,
happy moments don't last,
at least we were once part of a happy memory.

to Sky Sir and Fazi Mdm,
I'll sure to miss you guys,

Now, im off to fulfill my mini ambition,
to become a salesman at some cool sports outlet.

of course i will work towards this ambition only during the holidays,
meanwhile life goes on.

whisper in my ears, show me what to do.

2009-04-11T11:15:00.006+08:00

Hey, ever wonder what falls on 11april ?
that very day used to be of no significant to me.

but ever since i met that very special person
11 april isn't as ordinary anymore.

thanks yujun, because of you,
my life became much colourful (:

Happy Birthday, You silly ass!

fate really played a part,

being among the thousands in anderson,
among the millions in singapore,
and among the many many billion in the world.

fate led me to you (:
thats how we first met at bryan's tuition,

get to know each other more during history class.

and today, we'll be the best of friends.

frankly speaking , my first impression of you was,
"another typical drama student"

but time proved me wrong.

i learnt that this girl isn't that girlish afterall,
she likes to tell cold jokes.

and really stubborn,
for repeatedly refusing to admit having a crush on 'erhem'

though this few points might not seem appealing to you,
but they mean a lot to me in different ways.

without you, i would probably become the only boy in the group,
thanks for trying to make me feel more comfortable by acting man,

appreciated really, although i suspect you have the hidden agenda to hook up on girls :o
but thank you.

and always there to spice up my jokes (:
like what they say,

" whats a good joke without a cold joke "
" whats ivan without yujun "

its one of my greatest blessing to know you,
i will never forget you.

as promised to make it the best birthday ever,
i really hope you had a great time.

once again.
happy birthday !

Stay tuned !

2009-04-10T22:26:00.000+08:00

The owner of this blog is very busy recently,
but considering the fact that the effort he put in to revive this blog

is totally unmeasurable.

therefore, he promise to update real soon by 14th of april.

some extracts of his post-to-be :

-happy birthday yujun and her celebration.

-" please he who pleases you "

-my small ambition to be fulfilled

if your interested to check out the content,
please be sure to come back for another visit.

yours sincerely,
ivan (:

Responses

2009-04-10T10:51:00.000+08:00

daiqian: you seem to havce forgotten what you told me.

10 Apr 09, 17:52

daiqian: lol so you do realise you have a flirting bug. (: and LOL @ junxi & wenjie's photo.
Ivan: Yo brother, yes i finally realised and im trying to cut down already. definately not forgetting what i told you and keeping it in mind. but its impossible to say not to love and you wun. the least i can do is not start another relationship (: so dunt worry alrights ?

9 Apr 09, 23:27

ruiting: twin, its no about whos letting go not. it is about having principles.
Ivan: i really don't understand what you mean about having principles. maybe you would like to explain to me someday. im just trying to live my own life happily.

9 Apr 09, 22:28

rebecca: hehe sorry will reply on next update :P and i still cant believe it:O!!!
Ivan: haha alrights, haha dunt know what to say, not in the right mood.

9 Apr 09, 21:37

Calvin: hellos! tag.
Ivan: yo welcome to my blog (:

9 Apr 09, 19:43

Wei Lin: Haha publicising your love.
Ivan: haha can be counted as la, since so many people dunt believe. i think many people are also offended in the process but i meant to express what i feel. so haha (:

8 Apr 09, 16:40

liting: ohh so uu will reply tags de arhs?? oO'' tag
Ivan: duh, whats with the big big tag sia -.-

7 Apr 09, 22:09

Bryan: But he's not kidding
Ivan: haha go away la.

7 Apr 09, 22:03

Janelle: Omg, I think everybody's going to find out. LOLLLL. You dont seem that you're kidding now. Ahahhahah. & Wenjie looks so gay in that pic, as usual.
Ivan: JANELLE ! haha indeed my blog is popular. wahhaha. i totally understand what you said in msn. im going to post abt it (: the wenjie and junxi picture was suppose to bring out my menliness. LOL

7 Apr 09, 20:53

Damian: Go go I support you in your Janelle campaign.
Ivan: yeah right, for your bet only. ass

7 Apr 09, 20:11

Bryan: omgosh janelle...
Ivan: LOL are you done -.-

7 Apr 09, 15:49

Janelle: I cant tag about anything if you dont post, because I have nothing to comment about. LOLLLL. But yeah, this is counted as a tag, so YAY.
Ivan: alrights alrights, im going to try to post more often (: do visit often yo. haha you seriously very random. hehe :)

7 Apr 09, 00:32

Fathi: Hey Ivan, Know who this is? Haha, link me up ass

Ivan: YO fathiMA ! of course i know who you are. linked. you then ass.

6 Apr 09, 21:33

Jasmine A: narh, your tag i owed you since..saturday. HAHAHA. tsk why post that ugly photo! ): and you didnt rang wo okay! must yuan du fu shu ;D
Ivan: wah its been a looooong while since you tagged ! TSK. anyway that photo is nice LOL.
yeah la you win la.

6 Apr 09, 20:46

yanting: that's so tempting! *points to the ham n cheese baked rice*
Ivan: LOL yum yum, its long digested in my stomach (:

a petal from the rose.

2009-04-09T21:34:00.004+08:00

occasionally pieces of memory from the past will flash through my brain,
remember the time when i was still ignorant and childish.

everytime i wanted something badly,
i would just cry and sit on the floor to protest.

it never really worked.
i never once got what i wanted.

soon, i would just think that everything was pointless,
turned out only to be an irritant, a pain in the ass.

believing in " whats yours is yours, no point worrying "
never once was i upset or worried abt
not being able to achieve.

the point is, no use frowning over things that dunt belong to you ; move on.

not knowing how to solve this situation,
but here i am, already very hated by your clique,

just voicing out what i wish to convey.
bad thing is, i dunt think i'm able to stop posting what i wish to say.

good thing is, i'll try.

but i don't change for just anyone.

alrights end of emotional talks,

MAJOR COUNTDOWN : 2
11 april 09 will be the first 11april that is important.

YUJUN BIRTHDAY !

will be celebrating in advance tomorrow.
pictures and post will definately come in.

stay in tune to "Ivan's daily FM"

i dunt think im kidding.
but i suddenly forget what to do.

or maybe your just different.
i guess i should just let nature take its course.

persevering til the day comes (:
i miss you janelle :x

bottled up feelings, time to throw them offshore.

2009-04-07T17:02:00.006+08:00

day after day, just like never ending supply of oxygen,
homework never ever stop piling in.

if night-time gives trees some time to stop work,
who will ever give us time to rest.

sometimes i wonder whether everything around me is real,
are you guys real ?

do i really exist as something called human ?
or are we just a character in a game, being controlled all the while.

playing with our emotions, torment us when we look just too happy.

perhaps i'm the only one around that is real,
everything else is an illusion caused by my brain.

but irony is,
i can't seem to control my thoughts,
nothing seem to be what i expected it to be.

but heck, who gives a damn.

at least i still got something i yearn for,
sufficient to keep me going.

like the sudden urge to keep fit after so many years of slacking.
been pretty depressed that many other male schoolmates could do pull ups without sweat.

yet i could merely do 1.

embarrassing enough, i know.
and of course abs, the final approval i need to get

before i am willing to go suntan at sentosa with hot babes (:

well the thing is, i cant sense the presence of the flirt bug recently. :x
its either im too drained to hook up on girls,

or its just that i only hang out with the same few.

or maybe its because Janelle don't trust me because i'm too flirt :}
therefore im cutting down. haha

i kind of miss her craziness during the weekends, serious.
i don't see why such a unique person should be left unprotected

perhaps i might be the one someday (:

whatever the case,
i will smile and live everyday as it is.

P.S: i think i look nice somehow in this picture

like again, i won't be bothered whether
you guys out there like/dislike it

but i love it (:
its what i call cooooooool !

but they have a different style of being cool i guess..

Till next time. kindly tag thankyou.

responses

2009-04-05T19:17:00.001+08:00

5 Apr 09, 19:26

aleithia: my name has an I in it. it's A-L-E-I-T-H-I-A, get it? and cadids fun okay. see all your unglam shots.
Ivan: yeah big and nice, i get it now haha (: no, imagine all your unglam shots :o and just because i said your pretty, your climbing all over my head huh. heheh :D

5 Apr 09, 02:57

Ezan !: y not recommend LJS Ultimate Combo to ur frens too.Sir will surely LOVE you,bro...& hit my stomach when water is in my mouth..cheers!

Ivan: eeee maybe when sky was around, i might just do so. now johnny is an ass :O AND im not stupid LOL. you dumb dumb.

4 Apr 09, 22:52

Colleen: hey!!! you sound like you've grown up from little fat, not very wise ivan...which is good, haha!!!
Ivan: i appreciated it for tagging, others not so. lols. but come often(:

4 Apr 09, 22:24

rebecca: TSK you idiot ......! productive lor! like you and jas weren't teasing each other and doing stuff haha
Ivan: haha i said i swear you guyys DIDNT. me and jasmine were doing our work lor. except for scolding each other stupid. no more le haha.

4 Apr 09, 21:08

Bryan: What the hell man....what the hell....
Ivan: haha i said DIDNT DIDNT DIDNT

4 Apr 09, 10:33

aleithia: lo, hello hello (:
Ivan: yo yo yo. linked :D

3 Apr 09, 23:39

Janelle: IVANN! You dont look like those who will write those kind of things about forgiveness and blah. Sounded so wise. AHAHA.
Ivan: AH NELLE, i really miss you LOL i think i mean it :x come often k ! i think i replied on your blog. :)

2 Apr 09, 22:10

liting: nono..i'm still not gonna tag uu..
Ivan: hey you just did -.-

2 Apr 09, 21:20

rebecca: why you force people to tag why ?!?!?!?!?!? haha jk jk tagged tag mine too kays haha DD !
Ivan: no i didnt force you ! :} yeah i tagged yours but you didnt reply. tsk.

Circus life.

2009-04-04T19:26:00.011+08:00

was once told that resting is to travel a longer distance.
that's truly an excuse for lazy ass like me.

figured out that once a person stops to take a rest,
not only does that person loses the adrenaline that keeps the body motivated to run,
in just a few seconds time, many would have taken over him.

imagine being the top few, ending up being nowhere without endurance.

haha was supposed to be 14th in position during last year cross country, behind boon how.
then i stopped near the gantry.

yeah top 21st indeed, great accomplishment without recognition.

but its not true that we shdnt relax at times.
that's what i call it, having fun while working hard.

brought jasmine, alethia, bryan, rebecca and yujun to khatib cc's restaurant.
always wanted to recommend that place to friends.

the nice ambiance and delicious food simply made resistance impossible (:
although its a bit noisy when children are around.

we had lunch before we started work.
check this out (:

Cheese and ham baked rice!

taste better than other restaurant which serves this.

but Bryan they all commented the rice seemed like it was left overnight.

but heck we enjoyed this meal :}
i chose this dish, my ability to spot nice food never fails. haha

And of course whats a good meal without an excellent drink to spice things up.

i present to you "strawberry milk shake"
yummy melted strawberry ice cream with cream on top.

the thing is i only managed to have a sip
although i paid for it.

TSK! who's fault who's fault ?

if you manage to figure out who's that behind the milkshake,
yeah that's the culprit.

probably hiding because shes too guilty to face everyone
after doing such mean a thing to me :O

yesterday was really productive. did quite an amount of work i guess.
finished maths tuition homework.
this are evidences that we were really doing our work

started off doing different papers.
somehow jasmine decided to challenge me,

loser had to treat the other party ice-cream.
now you know why i seemed so serious.

but yeah it did worked, this scene lasted for a few hours i think (:

p.s: alethia have this weird habit to secretly snap pictures
out of nowhere while doing her work.

once a gentleman, forever a gentleman,
i secretly wrote a few numbers incorrectly so that jasmine can win.

im serious ! LOL
i secretly have the urge to consume ice-cream as well. thats why !

like no way i will lose to jasmine RIGHTS ?

reward : ice-cream sundae !
description : err more chocolate over vanila.

bryan proved to rebecca that his an excellent kisser by making a knot with the cherry stalk.

And did i mention,
everyone was productive except for bryan and rebecca.

they cannot seat tgt de ! haha.

anyway alethia very poor thing, she only had ginger bread for lunch :/

so being nice, we decided to feed her. two spoons of ice-cream each time.LOL
alethia very pretty without specs. hahah.

okay i shouldn't praise her here.
someone will smell of vinegar later, rights jasmine ? LOLL

after that everyone started to slack le.
thats where all the pictures are born.

although this picture have nothing to do with me.

but its nice because it's one of the few pictures
which rebecca look nice

as she finally looked straight at the camera.

haha.

and alethia is pretty.

oh i suddenly got reminded of janelle.
janelle is pretty tooo ! hahaha.

Another rare picture!

this two person seem very intimate huh .
LOL

i swear they were not teasing each other
throughout the whole time.

neither were they drawing on each other's hand.

HAHAH (:

PROUDLY presents Jasmine and me.

not that there's something between us.
but she's one of the first,

to be able to capture a picture with me that is nice.

haha.

now you know my motive,
get close to her to steal some techniques.

honestly, i dunt think i have any feelings for her.
all those comments made us so awkward.

it's rare to find such a close friend and we dunt fall in love with each other.
oh i have two now !

one of them is ruiting, i remember of course (:
the one who is almost directly opposite of me, other than being nice looking. cheyyy haha (:

after that me and jas went to boon how's house to 'visit' him.
okay la, merely passed him his homeworks.

that ass was busy watching porn (as usual)

thats why he didnt want to let us in.
really disappointed boon how !

overall was great, had a really productive day as well as having lots of fun, really.

Day with that retard

2009-04-01T19:59:00.000+08:00

To brighten up my blog, which bryan claims that its emo.
im posting about a retarded day with that retard (:

Its kind of a make up for not being school for two days !
okay la, tooo kua zhang.

but in any case which might led to misunderstandings.
we are just good friends (:

although i suspect she likes me :x
(inside joke )

taken on the station while waiting for the mrt to come.

if you ever notice the wrinkles on my forehead which make me look damn old,
its because i had to bend down and look up to
make it seem like our head levels.

i dunt look so old !

proudly presenting our cheapskate watches !

its no couple watch, kevin teo has one too (:
thanks to ang jiahui lor.

got ripped off $6 bucks.
i wonder who suggested going to 'night market'

explaination !
the picture again looks stupid because of the previous reason !

AND we had to show the watches.

decided to walk her home after that.
It doesn happen everyday, happened to be in the right mood.
hady was with us anyway (:

but damn, i realised her house isnt that near after all -.-
lucky me for being road smart, i found a shortcut home. -> thats a lie.

overall was still great,
because someone gets to see her eyecandy yeah.

LOL

having second thoughts about walking her home ever again.

Jasmine, your so dead.
Jiayi and zoey will kill you after they read my post.

wahhaha. :D

We are just good friends :D
Eyecandy in name.
&
and jokingly having crushs on each other. LOL

The ribborn of forgiveness.

2009-04-01T17:43:00.004+08:00

Life had been all about study or homeworks.
i dunt want to post all those boring post about today's event.

unless something really interesting happens.

bad / good thing, my initial plan to finish homeworks somehow failed.
but i came across a very meaningful show on television.

at least i learnt a valuable experience about life which i think i will not be able to experience it myself.

catch this show one day, no regrets definately.

Totally agree that, once a person lands up in jail, everything changes,
time seriously dunt stop for anyone.

cherish and keep up with time, dunt let time ruin your life.

not trying to be a spoiler but lets start with some 'appetizer'

well, the show is about 3 friends who got released
from jail after 7 years.

Story goes like this ;
-his mum grew old with terminal diseases.

-his wife got another man, while his daughter wants a distance kept between them because her friends despise ex-convict.

- he never did learn his lesson.

interested now ?
check it out yourself (:

occasionally people do make mistakes on a moment of folly,
depending on the luck, some escapes the claws of holy judge lady.

others get themselves in a big mess.

the guy in the show said ;

" the judge sentenced me to 10 years of jail, you guys sentenced me dealth"

Its human reaction to look down on criminals,
but it touches me how someone could sacrifice so much because of family.

this people should be given a chance to redeem themselves.

society is cruel, the ability to forgive and forget
simply cease to exist when money comes in place.

thats when Yellow ribbon comes in
lets all come together to show that we never will blame them.

if they are willing to repent (:

If god gives me a huge company and make me a successful business man.

I'll promise to employ ex-convicts too.

i guess i still believe human are kind in nature.
its a whole new world to me.

Lets get back to work now ! LOL.
Mdm C wunt talk to me about yellow ribbon if i still refuse to hand in my work.

hahah may my speech allow you guys to understand something :}

-Sidetrack -

Handsome Boon How rocks !
( my only april fool joke )

To new chapter of life

2009-03-31T21:17:00.005+08:00

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10

ever heard this joke ?
where did number 9 go.

answer : seven, ate (eight), nine.

but my heart tells me, nine left me.
i remember the first few days when i couldnt accept the truth, i went into the state of denial.

Followed by weeks and weeks of sadness.
things got better when many people tried real hard to crave a smile on my face. (:
really appreciated.

people like daiqian! ruiting! and yeah kaixian and victoria (:

maybe things arent the same anymore but thinking back, i owe you all one.

somehow i regretted having a number 10.
its just not right because its unfair to her.
but i know words doesnt help anymore and i really dunt know what to do :x

i should leave this topic to next time when i know how to handle.

the main purpose is that i remember clearly the reason nine left me is because she wanted to be single again.
perhaps its just an excuse to make me feel better.

but in any case now, i want to shout out to all.

"i dunt feel the least bit of hatred towards you.
maybe i wasnt the perfect guy i thought i could be.

you will be able to find the perfect one soon (:
i wish you all the best.

and someday i wish i could be your friend again "

it doesnt matter whether nine will read it.
or whether people out there will like/dislike this post.

this is how i feel,
i need to get it off me.

i want to be happy :}
PEIJUN AUNTIE, CANCER PATIENT GOT WHAT IT TAKES TO CHEER UP (:

since their days are already numbered. hahah !

Responses

2009-03-31T18:24:00.000+08:00

1 Apr 09, 17:11

Wei Lin: Do quiz. Haha.
Ivan: what quizzzz ? must intro some interesting de! hahha :D

31 Mar 09, 21:59

Pei: I'm so scared really scared
Ivan: Pei aunty, scared that toilet paper roll will increase price ? or fishmonger dunt give you the fish's head anymore. haha dunt be silly (:

31 Mar 09, 21:56

daiqian: haha glad you've straighten your thoughts? welcome.
Ivan: hahah YEAH. come often la !

31 Mar 09, 21:50

Pei: Okay la, normally I also don't tag. Because I don't know what to say. But yeah, I kinda feel that way too. You really have courage Auntie. ^^ *clap clap*
Ivan: you can always borrow my mouth to tell your tale (:

31 Mar 09, 19:12

JASSY!: HI IVAN. LOL. Didnt really expect your blog to be so updated. Haha.
Ivan: EYECANDY ! LOL neither did i expect you to visit my blog. something huge indeed (:

message to god, thats where it went.

2009-03-30T21:29:00.002+08:00

wah the long post i wrote just vanished.
im not going to waste time re-writing.

my conclusion is
i dunt want this really bonded family to scatter.
let us all do a part.

may god bless us (:

Responses.

2009-03-29T22:44:00.003+08:00

PATRICIAAA: link lar

29 Mar 09, 00:08

PATRICIAAA: i mean friend X *CORRECTION

29 Mar 09, 00:06

PATRICIAAA: hey, you seriously is a dammm great friend, not to mention myself, you helped many others. just like FRIEND Y. i think shes going throught problems just like i am going through.

Ivan: LOL your a great friend too (: CHEER UP YO

28 Mar 09, 23:05

rebecca: hey daddy haha taggedddddd your rabbit very cute :D and your mom very funny :D:D haha piggy

Ivan: helloooooooo daughter ! (: my rabbit scare of you :o next time you come can tempt it with food, that time forgot. haha (:

28 Mar 09, 21:39

harshie: the rabbit is quite cute hehe and they are violent eaters as according to ur source it is shown tat the rabbit is able to go in all directions in order to rip the food off. yay! source based answer

Ivan: haha not bad, from entertainment to providing info (: come often !

28 Mar 09, 15:29

Wei Lin: Linked. Haha.

Ivan: alrights !

27 Mar 09, 22:59

Pei: Dear auntie, your brain is failing, because.... YOU HAVE CANCER! Isn't it obviousxz!?!?

Ivan: yo cheo aunty, very long never gossip over a cup of tea leh :O OUR DAYS ARE NUMBERED :/

27 Mar 09, 19:32

Friend X: not the other way round! HAHA ;D

27 Mar 09, 19:31

Friend X: NOOOOO. you need to worry about me acting that i've moved on so that you wont 'mian qiang

Ivan: HAHAH okay la okay la ! when shit happens, ivan will brighten your day (:

27 Mar 09, 00:38

Wei Lin: Your blog nice!
Ivan: haha thanks (: yours nice too!

domination of animals- where do human stand.

2009-03-27T21:01:00.005+08:00

my hair is still in place (:
might be a blessing in disguise that mr A caught my long hair first,
otherwise i might just be bald now. LOL

anyway anyway ! i really should stop being stubborn
waxing really makes my hair nicer which in whole would make me look better !
hahah.

i also learnt how to clip up my fringe to the side, without see-ing the clip though (:

my family have the rabbit craze recently
they even planned to adopt another one. my god :x

This is my current rabbit call 'val-val' or 'baby'
val val is named after my sister. haha
the new one might be called 'van-van' LOL

tempting tempting!

*i smell carrot, stay calm stay calm. dunt give myself away*

*the coast is clear, attaaaack ! munch munch *

my mum once told me carrot is good for your eyesight,
have you ever seen any rabbit wearing specs?

LOL mum, your son is 15 already (:

This is a edvidence that rabbits are violent eaters.
they would twist and turn the food.

then rip it off :O

*wahhaa, you have no where to run ! *
*twist ! turn ! SNAP ! MUNCH *

Name : Rabbit
age : unknown
gender : female.
height : unknown
Reason of being jailed : physical abuse to vegetables and being a glutton.

hahah thats the end of entertament (:

actually i just got nothing to blog today LOL.
hope its entertaining or something. hehe

GONE !

Age is catching up with me.

2009-03-26T21:28:00.003+08:00

Is it true that once man reaches age 15,
his brain will start to fail him?

whatever the outcome, symptoms of such case had already
appeared on me !
recently, i couldn't remember what i planned to post.

i made the whole post so appealing,
then *poof* i forget all about it the next moment.

Lets start blogging before i forget everything!

my day started of really terrible,
was extremely careful not to get into teacher's vision.
only to get caught by mdm C
BECAUSE HAOYU SABO ME ! :/

well im not free to cut today, see how thing goes tomorrow.
but im ready to be the very first student to tell off mdm C
and let her know how horrible a teacher she is. (:

see me in detention class :x

anyway we had the first most amusing physic lesson today!
learnt that lenses could reflect HDB flat images clearly from really far away.

pictures in my phone, i'll post it when i transfer stuffs.

talking about sciences, i got hooked up by chemistry recently.
miracle do happen eh ?

more interested in mercury itself
once i heard theres this scientist who accidentally touched mercury while experimenting.

for your info, mercury poisoning is not curable.
so what the scientist did was, he/she recorded every single thing that she went through
throughout his/her remaining days.

every single thing includes emotion, physically or mentally unwell etc
the info was compiled into a book,

to provide more information for future generation to study symptoms of mercury poisoning.

that scientist is noble or what,
if he/she survives mercury poison somehow,
personally i feel, its more than just a noble award he deserved.

hahha. Anyway!

Do you know.

once i wanted to be rich, to be famous.
i made a wish to god.

-to have the most amount of money one could ever ask for.

But Do you realise

now i decide to take back my wish.
i told myself.

-i want a simple job, with reasonable salary.
-a peaceful life, its something that those who got blinded by money will never achieve.

TADA now you know (:
its not that important actually, it kind of make me look like some slacker
but to me, thats how i want to spent my precious life :x
my ambition, my moto.

i spent so long blogging this, damn
Alrights, i need to sleeeeeeep already.

P.S: ZHENG YANG LOOKS LIKE COCHROACH ! LOL.

It only rains on me.

2009-03-25T20:58:00.002+08:00

global warming is really affecting us- or is it just me.

alarm rang at 6.40 this morning,
but still ended up late.

WHY ?

because mr lazy ivan decided to set the alarm to 10 mins later as usual ! LOL

i mean like i got so used to waking up only when the sun cook my butt.
and i was sick, need tonic to boost my health now !
of course, more sleep ! (:

i saw jiayi at amk, kind of made my day
(EYECANDY ! )
until i remember how i woke up so early in the morning YESTERDAY.

anyway met rebecca and bryan at macs.
rushed through breakfast and back to school.
we reached school covered in sweat, only to see a quiet/crowdless parade square.

its either flagrising had ended or we rushed for nothing.

social studies was retarded.

1st- i didnt understand anything! (@#$#@$)
2nd- thought we're having PE because ACCIDENTALLY looked at 3/1's schedule. :(
3rd- THE HOT WEATHER.

FINALE : got back 'incande' from jasmine after its surgery !

thats about it for my day (:
wouldnt want to post every little small details.

well many things have been happening.
although none happened on me, but i was more or less affected
because im wasnt a good boyf, now i want to be a goodfriend !

{to friend X }

heyyy, your really silly :x
dunt give up the whole forest for a tree, not to mention its a lousy tree.

if you start growing spider webs and had 5 layer of dust accumilated on you
because you cant move on,
-as a friend- i will make sure i vacuum and spray insecticides on you
to ensure that the day you finally move on...

its still a fresh and new YOU :]

what B said doesnt really make sense, its just a joke yeah (:
your suppose to laugh it off. like HAHAHHA ?
so dunt get affected by it.

im sure one day you will find the right cup of teaaaaaa :]
aiya if cannot i mian qiang, sacifice myself !

STAY HAPPY ALWAYS ! SMILE !

Arrival of doomsday

2009-03-24T23:08:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow going back to school.
heard that many people's hair didnt make it !

well im here to say my last words.

GOODBYE MY LONG FRINGE, I LOVE YOU !:(

*your time is up! muahahah *

Darkness isnt scary, Loneliness is.

2009-03-24T12:38:00.005+08:00

Got woke up early in the morning by jiayi and zoey's spam smses.

thanks so much.
its a bit saddening that i had to miss 2 english lessons :/

imagine my group emo-ing at the back because the only joker ;me; is gone.

well i'll be back in sch by wednesday which is tomorrow, but i might still be feeling unwell :x

anyway the weather had been super chaotic nowadays.
i urge everyone to drink more water and healthy diet :o

healthy diet makes me feel guilty,
maybe 3 buffets in 2 weeks made me ill, imagine all the food i stuffed into my poor stomach.
it gained me 3 more kg !

i weighed myself at rebecca house and it showed 70kg. ass.
but im still light. better then going underweight and im serious
my weight percentage is 90 only.

i think i got some childhood fear. im afraid of being alone at home when its raining.

i remember when i was young.
like now, i was having fever on a rainy day.
the whole house was filled with darkness.

i cried while calling my mum, i told her i was afraid.
i was worried i had SARS, cause i was ill during that period.
thought i would just die without anyone at home, silly me (:

well anyone was to question me " whats your greatest dislike ? "

my answer will be : " to be alone "

i mean im fine with staying home alone and stuff
but i really never tried going out alone. its kinda boring and silly -.-

the irony is, sometimes i'd wish to be left alone LOL.

i should really try to cherish what i have, then regret after not having (:

One way different angles.

2009-03-23T21:51:00.002+08:00

lets try posting about my bored life today with many extra details added to spice things up (:

we should start with:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM AND COLLEEN -.-

my mum is actually in her 30s only, like waaaaaaaaay younger than any of your mum out there.
cool eh :d

but the bad thing is she always like to claim that im her boyf,
so embarassing thats why i banned her from holding my hand. LOL

anyway i went to a doctor to get mc and medicine.
the first thing the doctor said to my mum was.

doctor: " im sorry but how are both of you related? "
doctor : " are you his sister or.. "

mother: " haha no, im his mum. "

doctor : " oh its either you look young or he look mature "
ivan * wtf face *

haha that was yesterday as a matter of fact.

today was waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay boredd.
woke up at 9 + was feeling sickish but gave a evil grin at the thought of my classmate are suffering in sch. wahah.

the excitement died down after time past by slowly to 10 with me staring at the com
DOING NOTHING ! damn.

worst still, there wasnt any breakfast ard -.-
* stare at rabbit, heard that rabbit meat taste nice *

LOL

heck applied some kaya on piece of bread and force them down my throat then ate medicine
timothy suen is a liar :O

heard from bryan he said dragonball was awesome
it turned out to me that the animated one seems better -.-

went back to sleep at 12. pigggg!
received sms saying that mdm chan became our chinese teacher

i thought i was having a nightmare, after crashing my face through the wall several times.
its not a dream -.- ass.

anyway chionged a little of the overdued chinese work, in case LOL
and my hair is DOOM with mdm chan ard -.-

celebrated mum birthday, blew cake.
watched my family happily eating durian.

what can turn out worst.
yeah im not going to sch yet, still running temperatures.

so tada, a boring life with details
passed ? (:

Book with no words ; meaningless

2009-03-22T16:16:00.002+08:00

one week have past so quickly
times flies when one is having fun.

and of course while having fun, we had some grp outing to study as well !
well done ivan, you got work done (:

anyway today is 22nd march ! tomorrow is mum's birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM.

didnt know whether she would liked the first gift
cause damn sister was commenting lots on it.

so i went ahead to search for her favourite singer's album which happen to be kind of really old.
but heck, i found it bought and gave !

what a nice son.

actually i dunt like the idea of posting this post.
because it kind of lacked pictures :o

but well, have to update because keep getting nags and complain about dead blog.

Happy Birthday to me !

2009-03-16T22:49:00.001+08:00

one year past by again, its 16 march 09 !

haha grew older and older by one year. tsk.
closer to retirement age LOL

anyway today was great !

but somehow i started the day too early.
woke up at 8 feeling all so excited, in the end to get myself tired before the celebration started.

anyway we met at amk at 12 to go orchard. they forced me to wear a shirt they bought
very ugly :o omg but no choice -.-

so we went to eat suki buffet i think.
ate like we havent ate sushi for million years. LOL
wenjie complained to the ppl abt the food he ordered 3 times. greedy fellow

then we played games like number guessing and force ppl to eat disgusting food. :p
but nobody ate lor. hahah.
a lot nice nice food, was disturbed by the shirt all along.

after that we played arcade, yay fun.
a lot jokes actually but cant rmb. ITS FUN.

then jaslyn and yiting got to go. so we come to our house.
yay i got hug from yiting and jaslyn :D

took pictures

(the ugly shirt i was wearing -.- )

then we watched 2 horror movie, kinda. haha
coming soon (nc16) and saw 5 (more of gore scenes )

hahah a lot fun stuff, laugh at each other being stupid.
wenjie and yujun scandal. haha
their lower parts of the body was covered with blankets

both hands inside. LOL. i leave it to your imaginations :d

then chit chatted, played guitar, piano.

ate pizza ! actually cannot describe cause a lot jokes.

then cut cake, pictures and sent them home :]
got hugs from everyone. cooooooooool. hehe

one of the best birthdays ever !
very cool. like some artwork :d
haha jasmine (: please no scandals, goodfriends (: taken when decided to camwhore
after being bored by coming soon.

all of them seems scared, i think i grown up. haha.

one of the gifts. haha this is made by jasmine. its name is "icande" LOL
the curly hair is purposely one -.- thanks :d

THANKS GUYS, LOVE YOU ALL (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY !

2009-01-27T22:56:00.000+08:00

rights rights right,

the part whereby "i help you alot"

thats my sentence, how many times is you help me sia.

and remember i can say what i think
this is what you said.

dunt believe me your prob la.

tagboard is a waste of time. you not happy then you come talk to me lor.
some ppl just have nothing better to do.
band 3 very lan meh. you so li hai still come anderson worh.

we can tell the whole world everything

maybe your many little secrets :O

2009-01-27T10:04:00.000+08:00

wondering if happy new year isn't really happy ?

nah my life is wonderful (:
seriously if someone decides to be angry with me, then so be it.
its not like i give a damn anyway.

because being angry with me makes you suffer
especially when your in my class.

i swear it is, im not trying to boost or anything, soon you will know.
it made things easier when you have few friends in the class.
and many doesn't really likes you.

so all i have to do is to expose your doings, is just a little spark added to oil and BOOM !

so now you think im your property ?
so what if i changed, doesnt affect you that much does it
its not like im your only friend.

OH maybe because you dunt have much friend, miserable 'princess'
spoilt brat.

why is it that everyone else can understand that
after having relationship, that person will spent more time with their stead

and why is it so that you want me to spend more time you you guys instead.
i have my choice right, you angry what, i your maid ah.

then what you go ard telling ppl i changed A LOT when others say its only a little.
and just because you want me to change back
which i dunt see that i have change till im so hated.

its just that i spend more time with my girlfriend.

so now you want me to spend more time with you all,
be the 24 hour ivan for you is it ?

and then sacrifice kaixian ?
stop your selfish thinking la.

you think your father rich then you own everything ah.
you better watch yourself man,
if you dunt watch yourself, im going to make you suffer in school.

you can dunt believe me.

try asking daiqian what happened in sec 1.

tell you the true, its really easy to make everyone hate you
because theres bad impression of you in their mind alrdy.

you decide for yourself.
like i say, you can dunt trust me,

actions speaks louder than words.

hey guys, you know this girl is a sadist.
she thought my pm was having a fight with her.

then she put he knows break dance something like that

shes trying to compare knowing break dance or not.

laughing stock.

2008-12-28T14:45:00.000+08:00

yesterday met bendan(kaixian) at amk mrt at 1 +
hehe was late because both of us slept late and woke up very late

cant blame us (:
then we mrt-ed to douby ghaut to plaza sing.
heheh thought i never been there before but turns out i kinda rmb that place

anyway we bought tickets for bedtime story for 245.
then we went down to eat again

bendan(ivan) made us walked up the escalator from b1 to all the way up and down again. tsk LOL
went to eat at some jap restaurant named kyoto something

remember kyoto only because bendan (ivan) corrected me hahah.
the egg was nice, note that food that i order doesn taste good. lols

anyway was late then we rushed to movies
bendan (kaixian) keep noticing the couple beside us kissing LOL
shes a stalker :O whole movie keep telling me.

anyway halfway of the movie, i accidentally kicked the chair infront then the guy/women turned back. haha
bendan(ivan) didnt notice but nvm hehe (:

haha then at the climax of the movie bendan (kaixian) did something funny LOL
secret :x cannot tell. LOL

hahah watched finish le then attemp to find watch for each other christmas present
but failed tsk -.-

haha although she say give up dunt want buy le, but she doesn mean it hahha :P
then went to eat secret recipe
haha both the cake suck btw.

bendan( ivan)'s drink like omg so sour but when drink very fast very shiok (:
and go out with him dont need pay anything. feel bad.
he will angry. so weird. nvm bendan(ivan) IS weird -.-

hahah followed by watching twilight, man the story so long and boring
yawn. hah (:
after that we parted at somerset where she went to met her parents

thats the end of yesterday (:
oh oh, this post is written by bendanssss (ivan and kaixian)

2008-12-28T11:42:00.000+08:00

Sunday,

4 days before school starts.
to begin with, i dunt think i have much to post abt

or rather do i have the mood ?

came back home after outing and 2 movies feeling rather happy
and then she had to say she wish she didn have this son

she praised me in the morning, everything was fine
what went wrong !

who cares, since she said that
i wldn give a damn abt her anymore.

talking abt school, i seems like im not prepared much
haha wheres my school books
and how come the ink on my homeworks disappear :O

was anything written on it anyway LOL
damn, so little time so much to do
i wish school starts later.

hahah irony (:

aiya, im just going to live my own life.
thats about it then.

wei continue tagging (:

2008-12-26T02:48:00.000+08:00

haha christmas didnt turn out that bored

staying over at cousin's house (:
cooooooool, just finished macs, hehe

anyway im just thinking someone wldn feel good celebrating christmas without friends

hahah poor brother (:
tsk.

how are you now ? what you doing ne, having fun ma ?
im bored, talk to me :d

hahah come back sooooooon :O
we will go fetch you but first, get online !

and merry christmas (:
we miss you !

from your niceeeeeee brother,
ivan.

2008-12-25T12:08:00.000+08:00

HEY its christmas eve but wheres the spirit :/

he distinctively remember how much he enjoyed the last christmas
he remember how much he long for christmas to come again

then again,
things were different this year.
the life he used to have was no longer his ; he lost everything.

he woke up on a rather gloomy morning
feeling as sleepy as he felt before he slept last night.

he thought maybe its because of the nice raining sensation
or perhaps,
something was lacking.

the lively house he thought it wld be
turned out rather cold and lonely.
he quickly looked around but there wasnt sight of any christmas tree.

he was disappointed, indeed.

he frantically search for a calendar to make sure its the correct date
yes, there wasnt any mistake.
its decemeber 24th, thats christmas eve.

he was stunned things went so badly
he thought life had turned so meaningless.

in that case, he didnt want it anymore.
he wished that god take that away from him.

some attemptted to cheer him up and blame it on the financial crisis
but he knew it wasnt.

he wasnt silly though.
there are many things he havent done.
he doesn want to die young.

he could only say
christmas was nothing but just a children's fantasy.

christmas dunt exist.

2008-12-24T11:01:00.000+08:00

Tuesday.

yesterday was bloody monday.
i dunt know what wrong with my skin nowadays
i feel that its .. more 'fragile' ?

he was cutting the tomato as ordered, everything was fine
till something caught his attention instead

blood quickly flow out as the knife slits through his thumb
and drips on the nicely cut diced tomatos.

his mind turned blank as he stares at the blood dripping from his thumb
while wondering how it will feel if the blood comes from his wrist instead.

a familar voice snapped him out of it.
but things starts to turn wrong.
the kitchen seems like its spinning sideways, his eyes starts failling him
he grabs on anything he feels and made his way to the office and sit down.

feeling rather uncomfortable, he thought he might have to spend the night at the hospital instead.
he was terrified, but chose not to think any further

he merely rested his head on the table

time seems to past by real quickly.
looking at the crowd decrease in number as many orders were served
he felt better or maybe his too numb to feel anything

but exhaustion filled him quickly.

clearing up things as fast as he could
he was on his way, rushing for the last bus as usual.
but things were quite different that day.

he was alone.

as the bus passed numeral bus stops
the passenger on board decreased till only one was left, him.

he used to think its freaky to be on a bus alone at night
but he was glad that day.

sitting at the last roll of seat on the bus,
he turned on his music and leaned his head against the glass window.

the streets that used to be stranger to him seems to be filled with memories now.
his mind thundered and no longer, it rained.

he was drenched.
but it doesnt matter to him anymore.

he know today wun be the worst day.
he knew someone out there will see him through,

someone . .
but he never get to know who.

p/s: im not emo (: im just trying out the narrative style.

2008-12-23T10:18:00.000+08:00

Monday.

seriously woke up feeling not very good.
i feel sad cause i cant make it for basketball again

but im seriously ill la.
i just got mc for work on saturday.

stomach very grouchy. ( is that how you spell ? )

i think i went to toilet twice in a row already -.-
wah i think im slimming down again, haix or yay ?

actually i came to realise life seems to be contradicting at times.
is there something we have to accomplish before we die ?
or we just live to die anyway.

maybe everything we accomplish turn to dust once we die,
then again, whats the meaning of life.
sometimes i wonder, whos the author to my life.

as far as i've known, im not the author,
i wldn't write such a tough life for myself, well that person sucks though.

my story will include me finding a gold mine one sudden day and get damn rich at the age of 14.
then i wld retire immediately.

or maybe the whole world revolves around only me.
its like everything still exist, humans have their thinking but i control them.

haha a little selfish, but its a dream anyway.

at least i finally understand whats the real meaning of happiness, sadness, angry or moody.
take a different approach and look at things this way.

happiness represents sugar, everybody likes it.
but nobody will eat sugar ; be happy, always.

happiness like sugar are not good for health if someone takes it too much.
maybe thats why nobody gets it all the time ?

or take it like sadness is a pinch of salt.
too much is unbearable but some is needed to keep things in place ?

being angry and moody spice things up a little ?

in another words, there wun be any one of them without one of them.
make sense ?

im obstinate, i demand happiness only.
one string difference between understanding and acknowledging.

this proves that im not cut out to become a buddha.
enlightment isnt a word for me, free thinking is my way.

i tasted sweet, sour and bitterness of life.
im done with it, im choosing to be numb.
i dunt mind starting all over again.

call me ivan, my age is one.

2008-12-22T12:59:00.000+08:00

Sunday.

its 4 more days to christmas (:
i cant wait for gifts though. nah i dun know what im waiting for though.

maybe its the class thingy. feel kinda nervous, wondering what kind classmate i will get

well i cant wait till kai xian comes back on the 24th,
then we can go out watch twilight, followed by seoul and go sing k !

then on the 27th when boon how comes back, then i get my yishun mate again (:

maybe on the 31st when dai qian comes back from china.
cooool then i have someone to talk to (:

or maybe im just waiting for the day when im ready to start on my homeworks LOL
dunt talk abt them !

i woke up to realise its a sunday anyway.
typical boring sunday when everyone just sleep their ass off
till their butts get scrotched by the sun

and im like stupidly waiting for someone to online since 10 +

sunday blues ! :O

hey actually i think i know what kind of lifestyle i like.
i like adults life (:

like hang out late at night having fun, maybe a little wine but NO BEER OR SMOKE.
well maybe after the 'O's which is 2 years away

then i will find some friends then hang out late late.

because of the new law which prevents underage teen to go out late night.
i remember im so afraid if i happen to see any police car patrolling at night after work.

then i have to spend lots of time explaining why im on the streets
then they call parents, school, etc

pain in the ass. haha.
well i saw one a few days ago after work, the police car on big light on me but they never stop though.

maybe i look adultish. coool :D

oh i want to make a wish. its 1.11pm btw.
ben dan tells me wish will come true when you see triple 1s.

to santa : ivan wish to grow up faster (:

2008-12-20T20:07:00.000+08:00

dunt have the slightest idea why god is taking away things from me,

maybe i've yet to learn the lesson behind everything.

it still hurts though, but i decided to be fine anyway.
but sometimes..

like i told someone, its not good to be too cheerful anyway.
whats on the outside doesn represent the inside.

victoria told me expert say that one needs double the amount of time to forget someone you love.
i say i need thrice, maybe a lifetime.

hahah thats a joke (:

well, other says that maybe getting into another relation will help.

but i tried, it doesn really help. ( i tried trying to like another one ) -failed
or rather i dunt know how to do it.

it doesnt really matter anymore though.
i have no rights to control anyone in the first place.

at least shes happy w/o me.
(maybe that guy suit her better )
all the best then.

its a new ivan with new life.
hey im single and availble, 14.

anyone interested ? hahha (:

well yesterday go mg 'concert' with victoria and lorena.
i though some kind of like victoria concert hall so big then i wore so formal -.-

in the end its just a small room then have big party only.
quite cool though.

got so interested in beatboxing.
alot chio bu too but overage ! how nice if im born earlier hahha.

anyway met victoria and vivian at 7. reached bugis then they tell me at BHG.
then i went over. guess what.

BHG got 3 storey, she didnt tell me which one then phone also never answer.
haix. haha.

then sent vivian off. then went to eat some japanese reataurant.
my treat sia, haha.

their mango something drink was awesome so was the greeny dessert/desert vic ordered.
( p/s: i dunt know which one is the right spelling LOL )

then lorena came then rushed over to the place.
stand for few hours watch ppl perform.

cool cool cool.

then went mac slack off a bit. then homed !
lorena say i quite gentleman sia (:

wahah. anyway cabbed vic home then went home.
till next time :D

2008-11-24T20:52:00.000+08:00

DAAAAAAAAAAL
ASSSSSSSSSSSSSI
MSSSSSSSSSSSSSF
NSSSSSSSSSSSSSE

2008-11-23T16:28:00.000+08:00

you'll never know the world outside until you go out and have a look yeah ?

i totally understand.
reality is harsh, i want to go back to being a child again.

im tired.

im confused.

i cant make up my mind.

the passion isnt there anymore. its taking over my life.

i like/hate basketball.

if i can make a wish now. my wish is to have ten days in a week.
seven is NOT enough ! damn.

im neglecting everyone. i havent been home at night for a week
and everyday i step home, everyones a sleep.

wheres freedom ; lost joy ; damn life.

sometimes i tell myself, its my life. im going to do what i want.
but its no longer my choice.

it seems like life isnt mine anymore.

but i learn to appreciate people ard me.

i love you mum/dad.

spending money is easy, earning isnt.
i know it, experienced torture, seen society.

its cruel.

look on the bright side. ivan is growing mature.

alrights been working till midnight for the past few days
tired out man but i had some fun in the process.

i miss everyone, carey in particular :}

today's 23rd :)

happy 7th anniversary my silly baby <3

im sorry i cant find time to accompany you.
i need to go training now -.-

goodbye

2008-08-24T16:38:00.001+08:00

Sunday.

i just want to say a few msg to someone of real importance to me.

Loving someone
is loving that someone
despite that person's
flaws and weakness.

Don't frown,
because you never know
when someone is falling in love
with your smile.

Some people think
they have to say they are in love
so they believe themselves,
others don't need to say it
because they are.

I didn't know
I was looking for love
until I found you.

I miss you most when I'm sad.
I miss you when
I'm lonely.
But most of all,
I miss you when
I'm happy.

Sometimes I wonder
if life is really worth it,
then I look at your smile
and I know it is.

Whenever we're apart
it feels like
a part of me is missing...
and then I remember,
you have my heart.

You know you truly love someone
when everyday you meet
is like the first time you fall in love.

I wish I could be your tear drops,
for what more could anyone ask for
then to be conceived in your heart,
born in your eyes,
live on your cheeks,
and die on your lips

You may not have heard me speak to you that I love you,
but the way that I look into your eyes,
the way I smile when you pass by,
and the way that my
heart feels when you are near...
all speaks of what best
describes the love that I feel.

True love is,
when everything in the world is going wrong,
all you have to do is look at that special person and,
suddenly, everything in the world is right again.

There are 3 great things in this world.
The first thing is for you to love someone.
The second thing is for someone to love you back
and the third greatest thing is for the
first and second thing to happen at the same time...

If I count how many times
you've crossed my mind in my entire life,
I'd be lying if I said it was too many cause
you only crossed my mind once, why?
You never left.

I never loved you more cause
I never loved you less,
I dont love you now cause
I will love you always,
I dont just love you cause
I love you more than
"I love you" can say.

despite so much have happen in a single day yeah.
but my love for you will never change.

like what you told me.
you dunt need anything anymore, you just want me to be happy.

i would like to reply saying.
yes, i feel the same as you.

i just want you to be happy.

2008-08-23T17:53:00.000+08:00

haha its 23rd august 2008 !

Darling, its our 4th anniversary today.

you forget huh (:

its been 4 months and my love for you is strong and still growing .

LOVE YOU ALWAYS CAREY LIM FANG HUI (:

2008-08-23T16:52:00.001+08:00

Saturday.

boring boring.

nothing much to do :/
waiting for people to get online and chat/play with me ?

carey's gone for yf, like 1-6
so long.

someone, please get online NOW
haha obvious is someone who i chat/play with la (:

oh yeah, wash my bike and its ready to be cycled soon. so cool.
cycle to mrt on wed and cycle back some days after sch :}

yeah thats it, did some clean up today.

gone.
SOME ONE PLEASE APPEAR AND ACCOMPANY ME

2008-08-17T20:53:00.000+08:00

hey hello people, if theres any reading (:
ivan is back to blogger again. maybe cause theres nothing much to do online these few days :/

anyway today is a great day.

well it started off pretty boring. then got yue-ed to watch movie.

about 1.30 met victoria, dai qian and tasman at amk cinema.
then we bought tickets first, use my money pay for roy who was late leh !

we went to andersen to eat ice-cream.
wait for roy come, then we left.

played arcade, victoria play the hit-the-button game like crazy women.

then went into cinema watch money-not-enough-2.
a bit saddening la the show.

then come out take neoprints. i loook like some ang mo ! so cool ! (:
post next time. haha.

didnt go training, too tired.

anyway singapore table tennis losing. but silver enough la.

thats it for today (:

2008-06-17T13:06:00.000+08:00

Mondays.

i guess i have been always late on posting.
well, i cldn been blame totally yknow, cause theres really nothing interesting to share anyway.

all my frequent blog reader have seem to vanish and thats..bad ?

-carey's missing too :/-

its quite depressing to check on my blog every few days
to know that its still the same old msgs.

so i decided to remove the tagboard, at least i cld think in a way that makes me happier,
thinking that theres many tag which i just cldn see.

one kind of zhi wo an wei :]
i can only say things are different now,
i cant go around slacking and thinking that things will go my way.

i have to improve,
adapt to surroundings,
spare a thought to how others actually thinks. :/

im not sad, really.
im happy cause i learnt something valuable from someone i truthly love. :D

it will work out somehow.

with a blink of eyes, tournament kind of getting nearer.
one step closer to realising my long time dreams or..to eternal disappointment ?

cldn really tell.

always dream of playing infront of my class, prove to them.
im not useless.
i have to get into finals.

im scared, nervous and sometimes eager.
i guess i just have to stand strong, play to my potential and live with no regrets.

every shot i made is one step closer to dream come truth.
every point scored is to fulfill the trust my coach, our teachers and ppl who believe in me :]

all the best, i could say.
all the best...

2008-06-13T21:16:00.000+08:00

CLASS CHALET !

have you ever feel so aimless ?
its horrible..

something put in much efforts,
hoping so much it will be successful.

after a blink of eye, its done.
now life, is plain and aimless agn. :/

BUT well, at least i really enjoyed it
and it went pretty smoothly even theres many prob

the best thing is, i had carey for 2 days :]

Day one..

met up with carey abt 12 + at yishun mrt.
went to fair price to buy
some bbq food.

waited like forever for my aunt to come fetch us.

well, she had to help us check in. Thanks :]

our chalet room unit is: C-10
settled down and off to cycling. :D

-

Jie kang had phobia on almost everything :/
like surgery, surgeon and cycling ?

he went so slowly, and i had to pei him.
cannot speed up!

-

went back play mahjong !
carey went to play twister in the room

and i was tired, so i slpt on the stairs
comfortable ! :)

heard from carey, seri they all thought i was angry
im not -.-

carey came to pei me, painted my nails.
white was horrible ! the other was cool.

polishing is greater :]

carey's bad at massaging :0

went to bbq. bathed and ps2-ed !
the girls pangseh us to have their slumber party.

then they came down for food and wash their hair.
coz of hair-spray :S
then they had shift slp.

the 3 girls came down, then me and carey went up to slp.
wasn't tired la, wanted to pei carey until she slp

well, she cldn coz she was coughing terribly half the time.
she finally slept after a while.
we wanted to go out..

then larry la, wake ppl up.
whisper also sooo loud :s

then did some stuffs..
they went to slp, left me and carey

haha she had to watch me play digimon games.
then we tried to slp. BUT i wldn let her :}

4+
i took balloons from the tables and we started playing ballooons :D
until ppl started waking up...

Day 2..

carey cooked pancakes :]
i made heart-shaped ones for her, did some fliping skills.
haha !

after mahjong, went beach walk walk with carey !
so romantic :D
enjoyed althought didn't ride bike :S (carey dun like)
but same la.

went food court dabao lunch, horfan !
proper meal after 1st day -.-

the rest went escape, pei carey !
she didn't go cause she thought no bumperboat. :O
we slept for 3 hours, then went to cook fishballs, ice milo to fill our tummys :D

played NBA then watched pokemon!

had macs for dinner and cooked nuggets and sausage for carey !
but she cldn finish :S

played with flour, enjoyed the process
dreaded the clearing up stage :/

helped cleared up then bathed, everyone went to slp.

poor carey keep coughing, until like want die :/
ximtia !
pat her back like my parents used to pat me,

boiled hot/warm water for her :]

in the end still cannot slp, so asked by down to play diadee !

OWNED. :]
won 5/6 games, the last game got screwed up, almost win :S

last day..

slept till morning, we were last to wake up
heard ppl talking abt me, LOL

went to beach walk after crappy breakfast.
didn't fly kite in the end, cause i think its strange.
im soooory carey :(
but the shop was closed anyway

had to packed up real fast and check out.
bussed, mrt-ed home with carey,

everyone ps us :O

the moment i reached home, being alone and all.
makes me miss chalet agn.

especially caaaaaaaaaarey <3

waiting for december to come :]

ILY !

2008-05-22T21:32:00.001+08:00

*uThe Boyfriend/Girlfriend Survey*
How Much Do You Know About Him/Her
Full Name:	Careylimfanghui <3
Age:	14
Grade:	what grade ? graded A girl ?
Hair Color:	dark brown [almost bald O:]
School Name:	anderson secondary school
What town do they live in:	they O.o i thought its about 'her'
How Many siblings do they have:	none.
Do they have a dog:	have but its dying. :S
if yes, whats their name:	doesnt matter :D
what is their fav. food (the person!):	she hates corn O:
favorite drink:	sprite ?
favorite song:	by marooon five. alot leh..
Favorite Color:	orange !
What year was he/she born in:	1994
*Would You... To* .. them**
Lie:	she trust me alrights
cheat:	I WILL NOT [she's watching] :]
steal:	who knows, maybe i already did O:
kill:	NOPE, definately not :D
Do you.. (them refers to him/her)
Truly love them:	YES :]
miss them right now:	i always do.
want to kiss them:	MWUAKS !
want to hug them:	she's too short. -.-
want to have sex with this person:	under-age! i dun look like that kind of person. do i ? O:
want them to make all the first moves:	it'll take forever for anything to start then.
want to wake up with this person:	HUH ? set alarm same time ?
want to be in their bed right now:	with air-con on. otherwise, no thanks
want them to hug/kiss you right now:	i thought you alrdy asked -.-
Random Questions
How long do you want to be with them:	forever :]
What do you rate them, 1-10:	9347284043082934809498092
How long have you been together:	one month !
how often do you see this person:	one week five times? sometimes six :]
how many times do you call each other a day:	once or twice
''''' text each other a day:	123474230987
do you plan on doing anything with this person now or in the future:	yeah sure. [wrong answer just now :/]
do you plan on doing "it" with this person now or in the future:	what "it" ?
have you ever made a "Sim" of this person:	"sim" so chim :x
do you want a future with this person:	of course !
do you WANT to be with this person forever or just for a while:	FOREVER !
In the next five spaces, tell some things you like about him/her
1.:	laughing like mad person :]
2.:	hole on the right side of the cheek O:
3.:	the way she walks. haha !
4.:	the way she shows that she cares :D
5.:	her smile with brown teeth O:
Now tell what you dont like about him/her:	-
1.:	-
2.:	-
3.:	-
4.:	-
5.:	-
Random Contd.
Do you trust them with anything:	EVERYTHINGGGGG !
even with your life?..:	err...yeah !
Do you tell all secrets to this person?:	i have no more secrets left O:
Do you know all this persons secrets?:	who knows whether theres any leave :x
Does this person know all your secrets?:	yup, none leave. :/
do you talk for hours with this person:	yeah, lots to talk ;D
whats the longest you ever talked to this person:	seven !
do you ever just talk about random questions:	certainly do
do you ever talk about what you think of each other:	haha suan each other often
do you say "i love you" alot but not really mean it:	i dun but does she ?
do you say "i love you" alot and really mean it:	yupyupyup. always do.
Whats the longest you went w/o seeing this person:	over the weekends :S
Have you been to their house:	she dont let me go.
Have they been to your house:	i wun let her come. haha
Summer Vacation!!
Do you plan on going out alot with them over the summer:	YES
do you plan on seeing alot of each other over the summer:	yeah-.- [this quiz keep repeating]
do you want to see them over the summer:	YEAH, I DO
are you going away from this person this summer:	i hope not :/
If, yes, where are you going:	she's goin to camp :(
If its REALLY far away, will you keep in touch:	how far can camp be ?
if its not far away, will this person visit you:	she cant escape from camp, can she ?
is the one you love going away over the summer:	FOR CAMP !
If its REALLY far away, will you keep in touch:	shut up -.-
if its not far away, will you visit this person:	------
if noone is going anywhere, are you going to spend alot of time together:	for the 4592348th time, YES
Would you ever....
make out with this person for over a minute:	make out ? {as in? }
hug this person for 30 seconds:	if she's tall enough
stay over this persons house:	that will be miracle !
have this person stay over your house:	if she's willing, i dun mind :D
sleep with this person:	depends. :)
have sex with this person:	NO. tooooo young
sleep in the same bed as this person:	maybe :D
stay up all night with this person:	class chalet, definately !
What do you Want to do with this person that your afraid to say in person
1.:	i told
2.:	her
3.:	everything...
4.:	i think
5.:	so...
Final Questions
Did you like this survey:	no repeating questions ; yes
did you get out all that you wanted to put:	yeah, sure did
Are you going to send this to your bf/gf:	im putting this in my blog O:
Take this survey \| Find more surveys Bzoink - The Original Survey Site

2008-05-22T18:17:00.000+08:00

HELLO :]

first period mother tongue; free period. :]

someone kept slping O:
so tired worh. LOL

followed by hist which was boring and lame.

after recess was maths.
where got after exam still studying de.

mdm hee so ..irritating. -.-
science was not very usual, collect stuffs
went through srp, thats it.

english watched star dust.

-

after sck went movies with carey!

what happen in vegas. O: not bad.

could be a very fun outing if ___ didnt call and ask her back for makeup lesson.
sucked.

but carey didnt want to go back O:
well coz buy tickets liao and she dun wan to disappoint me i guess ?

after movies, went home.
saw fadzly and afiqa !

thats it.

dun be sad kays. it hurts me more if your sad.
no matter what happens i'll be there for you :D

Happy one month anniversary <3

to beloved carey !

2008-05-16T21:02:00.000+08:00

FRIDAY

often known as 'last' day of school.
coz tomorrow NO school !

tsk, but that only means i cannot see her :(

well, english we went through the board project and
played some number game.

almost lose coz of boon how O:
ask me say 36 -.-

P.E

captain ball agn. fadzly bang onto me,
then i forget its not basketball match, its my own friend O:
den i shouted " _____"

SORRY FADZLY if i scared you O:

yeah, today veri rough, larry and arvin got injured. :S

den DnT all the way. BORING !
followed by FORUM ! BORING TO THE EXTREME O:

today nothing much la.
thats it :D

2008-05-15T21:22:00.000+08:00

Starting time: 927pm

Name: Ivantanzhixuan. [ so famous ;D]

Sister/s: one ; so unfortunate :(

Brother/s: nopes

Shoe size: err...10 ?

Height: 1.81cm [regretted asking ? haha]

What are you wearing right now?
-converse shirt and some black pants.

Where do you live?
-yishun

Favourite number : 08 [jersey number :D]

Drinks : H20 apple ; the auntie know so well.

Favourte Months :
- whats after december and before january ?

Favorite Breakfast:
-i dun like breakfast but dimsum will be fine.

***********Have You Ever***********
Been in a hot tub:
- i prefer cold water.

Swam in the ocean:
- yup , haven drown :)

Fallen asleep in school:
- yeahyeahyeah.

Fell off your chair:
- must be some people's prank -.-

Sat by the phone all night waiting for
someone to call:
- lying down in fact but YES :O

Saved e-mails:
- un-read a lot

Been cheated on:
- YES. you dunwan to ask who :S

***********What is************
Whats right beside you?
- left or right ?

What is the last thing you ate?
- SOAP. o.O

----------Ever Had----------
Chicken pox:
- nopes

Sore throat:
- hated.

Stitches:
- GOD BLESS, NO

Broken nose:
- still intact alright. :D

----------Do You------------------

Believe in love at first sight?
- never did.

Like picnics?
- under the air-con will be fine.

-------Who--------------------
Who last made you smile?
- too tired to smile.

Who did you last yell at?
-basketball team mate O:

----------Final Questions-------------
What are you listening to right now?
- 9,87 muttons to midnight.

What did you do today?
- wishing its holiday

Hate someone in your family?
- they love me :)

Good singer?
-you bet .

Diamond or pearl?
- cash.

Are you the oldest?
- look old, still young :D

Indoors or outdoors?
- any indoors at outdoors ?

------------Today did you--------------
Talk to someone you love?
- YEAH, so cool.

Kiss anyone?
-dun ask :D

Get sick?
- is aching considered ?

Talked to an ex:
- yeah i did :x [dun jealous O:]

Eat Dinner:

- ate dinnerS -.-

------Last person who---------
You talked to on the phone?
- anyone willing to call now ?

-------------Random---------------
Have a crush on someone?
- she said its different O:

What books are you reading right
now?
- not reading !

Best feelings in the world:
- emo.

Do u sleep with stuffed animals?
-OMG YES, a pooh bear -.-

What's under your bed?
- my books.

Favorite locations:
- some where without homeworks and teachers AND parents. :/

Danced a slow dance with someone
you didn't even like?
- i hope not

Who do you really hate?
- who ?

You lonely right now
-yeah im tired. [LOL]

What time is it now?
- 957

i took 30 minutes-.-
not tt im slow, people keep talking to me O:

2008-05-14T21:04:00.000+08:00

Wednesday !

so tiring, must sleep early tonight or else will hav dark eye circles liao O:

got back chinese paper, sucked-totally !
dun wan talk abt it :x

den art !
precious one hour ;D

listen to teacher crap den after lesson need write letter
to prove sincerity for handin in late file. -.-

recessed. timothy came to give me his number.
91238181 i think. [surprisingly i still remember]

sci rock ! got straight ACE for the paper, i'll just have to hand in my file
and A1 is mine. :D

well, the credit goes to CAREYLIMFANGHUI <3
who willingly lent me her notes :D
veri effective.

my phone got confiscated by miss lee.
crap, not fair !
but i admit i prefer miss lee more than mr eu. O:

maths, boring ! dun talk about it. :S

didn pon basketball after-all
2moro got match at kranji sec. im well-prepared :)

ALL THE BEST.

im going to sleep now :D

2008-05-13T20:46:00.000+08:00

Quiz: carey tagged me :)

1. Do you wish to get married?
i dunno O: depends on whose the bride :D

2. What do you want the most now?
i want to slp :S

3. Who is the person you trust most?
the person i USED to trust more, keep on breaking her promises O:

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
Of course :D

5. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
can i earn millions every minute without studying or working ? O.o

6. Are you satisfied with yourself?
what to you expect from IVAN's respond. :)

7. What are you afraid to lose now?
i dun't lose things, things lose me :D

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
i will when i manage to proof it, can we ?

9. What will you do if your HE/SHE hugged you?
Please let the person be a girl O:

10. What do you like most about yourself?
parts where i don't have curly hair. -.-

11. What kind of ppl do you hate?
err, people who hates me.

12. What feeling do you hate the most?
i hate to feel like i have no feeling, the emptyness. p.Q

13. Do you trust every friendship of yours?
how many times are you going to ask me about trusting -.-

14. Do you treasure your family?
they better treasure me !

15. What is the most important thing in your life?
carey ! [dun't let my mum see this, she will question why its isn't her,LOL ]

16. What do you regret most in your life now?
being born as a boy.

17. Who do you hope to be always there for you?
refer back to question 15 :D

18. Are you happy now?
i think so.

19. who are the people who have stood by you when you really were at the worst point of your life so far?
so poor thing. the worst point was made by the person who stood by me now O:

20. What kind of your friend do you hope to be in your friends eyes?
what if my friends don't have eyes! [ haha, random :)]

Instructions:
Remove 1 question from above and add in ur personal question.
Make it a total of 20 questions.\
{lazy}

Tag 8 people in ur list..
List them out at the end of this post..
Notify them in their chatbox that he/she have been tagged.
Whoever gets the tag, would have a blessing from all.

okay . i will not tag anyone .

everyone who i could think off, alrdy did tis quiz -.-

2008-05-13T20:13:00.000+08:00

Tuesday !

2nd day of post-exam activity.

INLINE SKATING !
nightmare can, so embarrassing if we fall.

at 1st dun feel like goin to sck de, anyway onli slept 2 hours COS
carey la, her fault. make me wait for the whole night O:
thanks ! :D

somemore got hair check, but mr wong say its fine. LOL

so we started wif skating.
horrible smelly skates and equipment.
MAN, dun tis people care abt something call hygiene.

forced to wear helmet that totally messed up my hair :S

cant stand properly at 1st

den its fine after a few rounds, so cool.
i was hoping to see SOME people ,un-named, fall :)
for fun nia . x:

den watched transformer, watched before alrdy,
on the aeroplane !
was damn sian, veri tired also but no choice. :(

after school, chiong to amk to watch movie- IRON MAN
with birthday girl - CAREY LIM

so C00l. :)
definately a memorable day, isn't it, CAREY LIM FANG HUI :D

anyway :

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! [once again O: ]

loveyou, loveyou, loveyou ! <3

2008-05-12T15:13:00.000+08:00

tis is a song dedicated to you,
by the time u finish readin tis post,
the song wld hav finish
which means tis post is 3min long !
[hopefully]

hello ;D its 13 may 2dae and something seems to tell me tt its an important date 2dae

hmm. cant seems to rmb... :/ haha. just kidding la.
its carey's birthdae! so important O:

as promised, i hav to write birthdae post in return. tsk tsk. ;D
haha. here goes :

happi birthdae carey

happi birthdae happi birthdae

happi birthdae to you :]

love you forever <3

it been 2 years since we knew each other,
so cool.
it some kind of fate to be in the same class huh
two years, so many things happen
good/bad,but we are still as close :D

gone through so much to get wad we are today
but i guess, all the trouble are worth it

BACK TO THE PAST :

i remember clearly we got to know each other
when miss yeoh put us in the same grp my impression of you was a monkey O:
haha !

den as time goes by, we became closer.
and one dae ! you came to ask me to be your SON
but i rejected you and said brother wld be fine :)

so since den, i was your kor. :]
lessons were damn boring yknow
but luckily i had you in my grp, planted right beside me
i cld disturb you, draw your hand, push your waterbottle (opps x:)
and many more...THANKS !

term one quickly passed,
and miss yeoh had to change your seat
we diftted apart i guess.

didn reali talk much since den.
i reali miss you. :S

something happened in the middle of the year
every girl hated me though,
but you didn,
although you were upset, but you kept quiet

i knew you were waiting for me to change,
i guess i didn wan to disappoint you, so i did, hoping our relation wldn get worser
but things were still cold :O

until we change seats agn, and u were just infront of me,
thought different grps :)
we started to talk agn, although veri little
and i had to find something to say be4 you wld open your mouth to talk to me.

- heyheyhey,
which remind me of something

GENDER PHOBIA-NESS !

you had tis strange behaviour coz your came from a girls sck,
marymount pri, rights :D

you wld take at least 2 steps back when we walk up to talk to you
haha, so strange.
you were afraid of many things like,
razors, pen knife, BUGS

remember theres once u had a bug attached to your back
den tian ning shouted" bug! "

haha, you went crazy den started spinning as though it will fly off O:
so cute ! -

and holiday came... though cldn see you as much,
but everydae play maple so can hang out :D
wad a pity, sec 1 no chalet. tts abt the end of sec 1.
thats how we spent our sec 1 life,
so cold, so unclose. i regretted it, if onli i cld reverse time,
den i will treat you better :D

-------------------------------------------------------

SECONDARY TWO LIFE

i think we got closer through maple, didn we ?
after tt, we chat in msn and sometimes sms O:
so cool. :D

though we sat quite far still,
but i cld get a clear view of you, where i will take occasional glances.
den i will see how peiyan torture you O:

the best thing was, we got into the same grp for art.
get to disturb you, draw your paper art work,
AND PAINT YOUR HAND and HAIR :D

so cool, tt precious one hour on tuesday.

---------------------------------------------

i finaally confessed on 26 march, 8:39:42 PM.
but things turn out negatively !
after so much things, we finally have wad we had today

im so glad i persevere :)

well, i want to thank you for these things (but i cant thing of any -.-) :

1. you didn took me feeling for you, for granted,
instead you used it to change me for the better, yup, im so glad :D

2. encouraged me to study hard.

3.wish me luck for every match i hav. O:

4.suan me, suan more la. im so HAPPI.

5. let me revise more, when i help u do your homeworks. LOL

6.hav free spaces to do my perfect artworks :)

7. BOREDOM-RELIEVE MACHINE <3
feel so bored-free when your there,
regardless whether its one liner speech, long chat or just glances.

8.thanks for being understanding, when im nt understanding enough

9. last be not least, thanks for being just the person i need,
being my best friend and Mei ;D

Thanks! thanks ! thanks ! lovelovelove !
WOOO...

once again, happi birthdae carey!
wish you all the best in whatever you do ;
i will support you no matter what.

hope our love last,
and i'll get to celebrate your birthdae wif you every year from now on. :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAREY !

I LOVE YOU! {hearts}{hearts}{hearts}

with lots of thoughts and sincerity:

Ivan:)

2008-05-11T18:11:00.000+08:00

Saturday !

still aching all over from yesterday workout
feel so tired to go out wif beiying to get carey's present
paiseh, yue hao le den last minute
fangfeiji :/

den quarrel wif audrey, wanted to not go carey's party O:
scare later meet her at party den quarrel wif her
den carey veri wei nan
but in the end we made peace :)
sensible people, so cool.

suppose to meet audrey and the rest at 3.45 at yck mrt

i was late, agn -.-

things tt happen[ almost everything is good :} ] :

1. played basketball wif lekha,
loser take off pants run the whole condo
she lose, but she cheated punishment O:

2.played soccer and basketball.

3.played badminton,
security guard so ma fan. this cannot tt cannot,
den carey's dad scold the guard,
so charming O:

4. ate dinner den laugh over many jokes at the table :)

after dinner, place-hop so many times to play volleyball
in the end
went to basketball court play volley-basket
dun ask wads tt -.-

something sharp went into my eye
so pain, i thought i was goin blind coz the pain is intensive !
went to wash my eyes in the toilet,
den passed by carey and audrey while rubbing my eye wif water dripping

den audrey though i crying, i think
lols.

played "dodge-slippers"
basically threw slippers at each other :)

audrey's short ; carey too O:
den blew cake, den the boys wan leave le
so i couldn stay too

if not will arose suspicion O:
yup, so leave early

TO CAREY :

happi birthdae :)
i will post your long long birthdae post on 13may
we enjoyed your party
thanks !

hope u love my present. haha
ILY !

2008-05-09T17:50:00.000+08:00

Hello,

home econs paper was easy,
i leave one question blank coz i was lazy to write
den i forget to fill it-.-

2marks wasted, so glad. :[

the paper finished at 8.45 and the court is book at 10
so we waited in sck.
while helping tian ning's srp grp to do their project which was chosen O:

den walked walk-bus to yck sports hall.
played from 10 - 12, 2 to 4

things tt happen[ good/bad] :

1.my teeth got smashed wif the racket by justin -.-
( accident onli and boon how still can laugh O.o)

2.tian ning said i improve :)
[ i did eh ? :D ]

3. too broke to buy proper lunch,
so all of us went to cheers and bought bread for lunch
the next resort is grass O:

4.pull boon how to run 2 laps at the running track
he suffered of asthma attack half-way
call peiyan, call peiyan !
she hav the inhaler wif 24-hour :)

4 o'clock after badminton met up wif tian ning.
she said J8 la,
in the end say must go until orchard.
tsk tsk.

we didn noe wheres wheelok's place,
so we intended to take taxi but

we got rejected by not one
BUT 6 taxi if im not wrong.

called my mum for S.O.S
found out we could just take mrt to orchard den walk there.

went to wheelok finally,
crumpler sold out, the cheapest one there cost $155
155 - 96 = 234564756523451
still got so much diff la.
so went off empty handed.

bought tian ning mother dae present
perfume - $110
so rich -.-

i also got carey's present.
not goin to expose the price,
if nt she will scold me for buying so ex for her :)

decided to go amk walk ard see wad can buy
wif the class money for carey
den was so aimless.

finally, went home.

feeling so exhausted and aching all over O:
see, so weida yknow :D
must appreciate.

2008-05-07T13:32:00.000+08:00

YupYupYup

2dae's history paper was a breeze, thought got how many question =.=
2 mcq, 3 structured and 2 source base onli
wad a waste of time. tsk tsk.

anyway it ended at 8.50.
never go home wif carey, WHY ?

coz she complained everydae go home wif her, now she miss her fren
yeah, so off day granted. am i gd or wad ;D

anyway i went to play basketball
suck man, reali suck

lost : stamina, ball handling ( O:) , but i guess my shooting was still okays :)

was quicky drained out by 12, so went home early
ate lunch wif don -.-
2 guys, so gay but nvm. lols

i guess tts it, im tired. go slp awhile bah

hellowfellow

2008-05-06T18:47:00.000+08:00

HELLO .

today was science paper :)
science paper was easy and chicken feet la , im sure i can score A1 !
haha !!

after exam , walk carey home because shunlu , then go back to jiemin to play basketball with ex-classmates . then got thunder and raining , so play a bit nia then go home .

nothing to do .
current longest phone call record : 7 hours .
LOL .

anyway . tts it.
bye

2008-05-05T17:00:00.000+08:00

HELLOS :)

who am i ?
i am carey
:}

hihihihihellohihi . i shall post as ivan .

-

hello im ivan :
today i went to eat pepper lunch with carey . and i stuffed her with beef so that she can grow . then er , we went to amk library to mugmugmugmug . mug science . i know that carey will get A1 for science because she writes notes damn nice and errr , she kindly kindly lent me her notes to mug . because she doenst need them anymore . too pro wahahhaha :)

fine .
i dont trust carey .
i dont trust her .
haha . because im petty . im petty :D
but shes okay . LOL .

okay then .

-

haha , ivan is disturbing .
i dont want to post anymore . thankyou . and im NOT GOING TO READ THIS OUT LOUD .
shush ivan tan .
:O
LOL .

bye .

btw i wrote the profile la . thats so un-ivan lol .
:)

ciao

2008-04-20T17:40:00.000+08:00

yesterdae i skipped tuition coz was having headache !
oh tt headache is dorminating my life. HURTS.
den whole dae lay on the sofa listen to music, hoping the headache will go off. but it didn. O:

-den waited for almost 30 min or half-an-hour which 1800 seconds at yishun mrt for carey to come. imagine how late she was..=.=
den she finally came. mrt-ed to woodlands.
shop ard for arvin's present. like nothing to buy, the most i can think of is
SK2 whitening. lols racist !
at 1st carey wanted to buy bottle but i stopped her coz

1) lack creativity can. so not interesting at all

2) we still hav plenty of time, so might as well shop ard 1st.

den in the end i sugest buy a piggy bank for arvin. ask him save $ ;D
but carey needs 1 herself too.
den i treat carey to eat ice-cream. OMG. later her cough worsen de is my fault can. =.=

den arvin came. so we went his hse. sit there watch show until dno wad time den start dinner..
meanwhile we watched AVP2, spongebob and some tamil show in the beginning ! -.-

played carey's bomberman game, i owned. lols.
ate 2 halfs choc, coz the other half was eaten by carey ..

den ban carey from orange juice which was green in colour..and eating anymore choc, lols.
den eat finish dinner. ard 8.30 den went home wif carey.
sent her home even i was half-alive ( kua zhang )

got tis cute little grl waved and said hi to me at YCK mrt. see, im loved too.

SICK ! tts it. bye

2008-04-18T19:55:00.000+08:00

today sck half-dae nia. 1st period was english, miss lee is back ;D
somehow i like her more, nt because she's female.
just tt maybe....lessons more interesting.

skip.skip.

den followed by PE. i wonder wad went seriously wrong wif my body.
play until half-way, i got tis strange kind of feeling.
its like everything turned blur, and whiten. i dunno why. its like my head became veri heavy
and like no blood flowing through my head. PAIN.

but i still insist on carry on. so i went on.
den DnT, so sian.. i prefer home econs. nicer.

after sck played basketball a while la. den went home wif jie kang they all.
but kate smsed me to meet her play basketball again.
so i went....den play until half way, i BLACK OUT.

scare the hell out of kate. sry ! but im fine now, after 3 hrs of slp ? lols. ;D

2moro go arvin's hse for his birthdae celebration worh...who's goin ?

tts it. byes.

2008-04-17T17:36:00.000+08:00

15/4/08

tsk tsk, so tiring. went for 2.4 run.
basically, i didn run to my fullest BECAUSE

1) was so tired even be4 the run, maybe tuesdae lessons were so dam boring !

2) i got flu and cough, like cant breathe.

3) ran too fast in the starting, nvr balance throughout the run.

4) AND ITS WEN JIE's FAULT, he lay on the lane 6 and wanted to seduce me * vomit*
den i ran over to stop him, den veri funny
mdm lim shouted " eh number 15 ah, dun play a fool. go back lane 1"
den every laugh -.-
so i decided to re-run when the rest take their run months later.

16/4/08

art lesson was a bit disappointing though. like nobody talk coz normally i will start talking 1st, i think...-.- was feeling a bit down coz i wasted kevin's GREEN( mixture of blue and yellow ?) paint. den he a bit
unhappi. 1st time feel so intimidated. like dun dare ask for more paint.

even if ask also VERI, i mean VERI polite. but im polite all the while too ;DD

den we started paint fight again. drew carey's face like cat. so nice.
tis is the nice part.

the part where my face got drawn, WASN nice. WASN = WAS NT, NVR NT. lols. =D
den half the class leave for speech dae rehearsal after recess, so sian.

17/4/08

2dae....suck though. life kinda starting to get more and more boring.
tts it.

{ i realise life starting to get boring when your nt there. i mean seriously, when u are still
in sck, i will hav 2nd thoughts of goin home. when you zao liao, i feel like goin home
immediately coz so sian.,..! }
;DDDDDDDDDDD

2008-04-13T11:18:00.000+08:00

yesterdae was choir concert.

so 4.30 went to YCK mrt to meet vic, den waited till 5 + for tas and eug to come. but they didn !
so we had to move on to J8 1st. wth.
victoria so strange, she likes eug, eug likes her but when they meet.

like total stranger can. so wierd. one by one the crowd came in, tasman, eug followed by jian kun.
nothing much to do, just walk ard.
in the end bought something nicer for carey. at least can last forever if she MAINTAIN it. lols

den we started wondering ard again. saw audrey ! so diff from pic when she ties up her hair.
den we waited at the mrt for another 30 min ! for rui ting of course, who was so dam late.

all because of her, when we reached the concert hall, all the gd seats where we can see
carey is gone ! -.-

so we found a corner seat behind vivian, py and seri. { py look damn hip-hop yesterdae }
audrey started random things lik passing letters in the hall, pulling py's hair and accusing me of doin soo.

OH OH, DEN SHE SLEEP AND DROOL. i had so much difficulty to clean the mess -.-
coz of rui ting ! carey was hidden behind some ppl and we couldn see her.

skip skip skip.

den me, carey and aud went to eat at cafe cartel after walking round J8 to look for pizzas -.-
i didn eat coz i was full. aud ordered fish and chips while carey ordered medium rare steak.

guess wad, they didn finish. carey was worst, 3/4 of the steak was still there. lols.

after tt, audrey leave.
being veri much gentlemanly and nice, i walked carey home. coz it was lik 11.30 ++
veri dangerous for a small girl to walk on the streets where evils is loaming in dark corners.
haha. yeahyeahyeah ;DDDDDD

still got so many homework undone. today must chiong finish, must buck up liao can.

2008-04-03T18:15:00.000+08:00

got myself a free and significient armband. for your infomation guys, theres nothing between me and tian ning lahs. we are buddies.
and im sure no other girls will allow me to plug out the rubber band from their hair and put on my arm for a long period of time rights.
so i just had to take tian ning's since she herself doesn mind.
haha ! yeah so tts for explaination.

hmm, seems like walking in the rain had become on of my daily routine.
ever since young i had always liked walking in the rain or playing basketball under it.
so cool. the feeling of bathing in public. drenched, head to toes.

the dropping of raindrops seems like a nice massage. cool.
the onli thing tt i dun lik is tt when im wearing anderson's uniform.
the clothes will stick onto our body den seems like nvr wear clothes.
my disadvantage can, let ppl see my nicely shaped body. ;D

tts enough of tis week yeah, i'll post on sat and sun again.

2008-03-30T10:51:00.001+08:00

i guess love is still nt a thing for us yet. lets concentrate on studies 1st.
i will study hard, get a gd job, buy a cool sportscar and chio bu's will come to me yeah. ;D

lets not let wad happen tis few daes affect our 1 year + friends

p/s: tsk, you and audrey 10 years friendship le...-.- how to catch up...zzz. lols

smile and the dae will pass, im sure 2moro will be better ;DD

BEST FRIEND AKA KOR foreva .... . :)

2008-03-25T19:56:00.000+08:00

lessons were as per normal, which obviously is, heck of boring lectures. tsk tsk.
got assigned to sit wif deepak ! goodness gracious, thank god. i'm gonna miss jie kang lik lots. the times when we sing together, crack lame jokes. lols.

i suddenly rmbed one reali lame thing abt childhood.

i went to this fren's hse and we were listening to radio, den my mum called. blah blah blah.

den i had tis lame idea of telling me mum tt i was singing den i put the phone near the radio -.-

certainly lame back den. haha. yeah tts all.

2008-03-24T18:14:00.000+08:00

goin to sck is a boredom. NT goin to sck, is hell. its like nothing to do at all and the weather kinda sucks.

morning woke up pretty early abt 7.30 and the rest are at sck singing the national song. LOLS.
den i started downloading many photo editing software and flash slide show.
in the process of creating the "surprise". ;D

afternoon followed my mum to cut her hair, den mine was cut too...wth ! but it turned out pretty okay. den bought a shirt which cost a bomb for her present. -.-
haha, manage to persuade her to stock up "junk" food. oh bother, i guess i shd exercise more..zz.

wanted to start on a bit of homework acty, but decided to hav a nap 1st.
homeworks are still UNDONE.

oh well, i'll attend to homeworks 1st.
byes.

p/s : the trip to desaru, later den post -.-

2008-03-23T20:34:00.000+08:00

i guess i'm back to blogging coz my number one blogfan : CAREY. persuade me to. with terms and conditions applied. LOLS. yeah. 1 week after my birthdae. it 23 march 2dae. guess wad...

HAPPI BIRTHDAE MUM.

i guess she wun wan a birthdae post coz 14 years off story from when i'm born will take daes -.-

lols.

finally back from DESARU. a grt place to slp all dae but nt a veri tourism spot. i will post in details wad i did there and some pics SOON. tired !

2moro got wad chi cheng yu test. screwed ! but i'll learn, in case..-.-

byes. short and sweet. ;D

2008-02-28T11:03:00.000+08:00

haha. now CE den teacher giv us free period..

my class spamming my tagboard now. its a great boast for a dead blog like mine

2008-02-10T09:58:00.001+08:00

WEDNESDAY

studied 1st period which is sci nia, den present the SRP project. haix, maybe outsiders cant see
but insider surely noe it. some unhappi matters occurred without a freaking reason -.-
after tt, off to concert !

den reached the hall. mr ang was lik ' i count to 5, u all muz keep quiet' -.-
he went ' 5,4,3,2,2,2,2,2,2,2,2,2,2,2,2,2,2,2,2,2,2,1......,1,1,0 ! ' -.-
1st item is the oversea scholars. we thought muz be some boring thing again, but the girls were out to surprise us o.O
skip skip skip.

followed by chinese dance. can onli sort out some of the girls nia. they all look lik zombie with tt looong slevee. OH OH, especially xin ying. we see liao, laugh lik siao.

break dance nt veri amusing as last yr...

choir !

lols. was longing to noe wad carey was telling me abt her performance last night.
turns out quite funny ! we did some stupid things, den she manage to notice us. den den, theres tis part where she keep pouting( coz i was laughing at her real hard =D ) den she almost miss the 'gong xi' action. haha !

officially CNY holidaes....off to malaysia the next dae =D

2008-02-03T21:38:00.000+08:00

sundae !

woke up at 8 den still feel a little tired so continue slping until 12 ++ -.-
so late, 1st time can.
after tt, keep surfing the net, forget still got a lot homeworks haven finish....

nvm. i vomited twice 2dae. once after lunch and once after dinner and its lik 3mins ago.
feel sick. so i dun hav to go to sck 2moro but i'll miss u guys. =D

anyway , my mum is back from japan. she bought me a nike watch and nike basketball shoes.
so cool. wanted to show off by bringing them 2moro but i got lots of homework un-done and i wldn wan to burn midnight oil 2dae -.-

( heard carey's computer crash, lets hope her com will be fine so u continue posting ! )

bye..

2008-02-02T19:47:00.001+08:00

SOME PICTUREs !

snap shot ! caught un awared ! i didn do tt, lorena did -.-
vic ! the guy inside ur "twist" sign is her kor and maybe some other things =D

( ask her urself -.- )
oh, avoiding looking at my fringe -.- my dinner >> look at the 2nd 1 from the right
zi lian ! haha. chio la chio la -.- somemore use my phone take. lols

tasman, smsing serina bah. lols.
lawrence, my new gay partner. =D
dodging the cam ! ( SUBWAY ! )
tis is wad u call true magician, penatration !
lorena liks to disturb ppl from having a peaceful dinner. -.-

2008-02-02T18:36:00.000+08:00

OUTING

goodness gracious. the outing was sure fun ! at first i thought i wld regret coming out but in the end i enjoyed it...!

first we met up at long john sliver. i went there, den onli got lorena and vic, at first i a bit shy shy so i went up to sony shop to find tas.
after tt, we went arcade play. vic played tis car racing game wif tas and other 2 outsiders..-.-
she scream at every turning corner ! embarrased !

at 1 ++ we went to library, met up wif lawrence. den we study at a corner. i keep doin my homework den they sae i hardworking. ( 1st time, some1 said tt ) got complimented on my nice nice handwriting. =D expected ! den i got warmed up or so. so we started chit chating happily !
( lorena pinched my stomach so hard, suppose to be poke but she PINCH -.- )

den 4+ we go long john eat our early dinner. onli me, tas , lawrence and jian kun bought btw.
lorena and vic happily groping my water and fries. vic worst ! keep taking my water lik its hers
-.- ( hehe, at least i get to drink 2 girls saliva =DD ) (JK ! )

den vic's frenster kor came. super ugly ! den me and lawrence keep gaying but in fact we were badmouthing abt her kor. but i kinda pity him, he came to far to find vic den vic ignored him. lik stared at vic for 30min or so den she told him we goin shopping and ask him to leave -.-

went to buy tas's gf de necklance. at the shop,lawrence go pull lorena's bra strap -.- PERVERT ! lols. laugh lik mad. we shop shop shop den abt 5 ++ lorena went home, den vic's parents came, so she had to go too =(
den we all went home ! looking forward for the next outing !

i thought u are one of my best fren,
but u actually badmouthed me -.-
heaven got eyes,
to let me noe abt ur cruelty.

tts it 2dae ! fun !

2008-01-27T11:21:00.000+08:00

W910I !!

such a popular phone. its nice and simply rocks !
carey mei bought the same phone as me lols, hers is brown, mine is red.

haha !

yesterdae i say she copycat, den we were lik play-communicate through the msn PM. so fun.
done some pep talk wif ____ yesterdae, was talking fine, den not long after i invited carey into the conver, ____ was lik angry at something den left -.-

victoria -mei also bought W910I, same colour somemore. haha ! i call her mei lik guai guai de..-.-
nvm.

i hate shopping ! my mum forced me go orchid yesterdae. i warned her i will giv her black face, in the end, i reali did ! cant blame me rights...

anyway !!
i think i gonna wear specs soon, but not everywhere la. juz in class during lesson nia.
tts it. yeah.

2008-01-19T21:26:00.000+08:00

went to tuiton early in the morning 2dae, woke up lik 7 +. its lik onli 1 hr later than sck daes. so tired.. -.- ... but tuition was fun fun fun ! coz my mum drove us there 2dae, so we got there early..normally, we will be late den no need stay in tuition so long =0.

we planned to be late, so we had tis crazy idea of doin taiji wif the elders below the flats. haha ! saw tis short short auntie, den we started to mimick( how u spell ? ) their moves, they stared at us. den we all laughed ! so funny. lols. in the lift we discussed abt pressing all the bottons till 9 floor, while discussing, we realised we reached the 9th floor -.-. den teacher waiting at the door liaos. so went in..

the lessons went on....a lot of teachings but we enjoyed it. especially the crapping part. haha ! chang and i compared our skin colours. i am so dark, while his -WHITE - anyways, we went to " OH CHANG KEE" for breakfast, or rather snack. lols. wad i bought was a secret.

napped for 4 hours till 3 + i think. i swear i thought of doin homeworks. but i didn. the reason is obvious..i need to figure out wad to buy for joey's birthdae...
anyway, i realised i dun quite lik KFC's chicken. makes my stomach feel oily..-.-
but burgars are FINE !

ps: guys, sometimes we concentrate too much on popular figures, and left some nt so popular ones out. feel a bit wrong though i do it all the time. but let us all change yeah ? i bet tt person tt was left out will definately feel bad. ( i think i nvr experience tt feeling though, i am way too popular. ) haha ! anyway, lets treat every1 equal, but put me 1st !

2008-01-12T23:02:00.001+08:00

juz a little something i wanted to sae and thought of how to phrase in without direct mention.

i think i reali dunno how to control my emotions. when some guys gets close to the girl i lik, even juz simple chats lik "hello, bye" i get slightly jealous. its lik..-.-

i didn wan to be lik tis but its my emotion tts controlling me..sometimes i hope i am

her onli fren, but i cant control such matter, can i? den i will be some freak or wad....

hmm, i am juz saying from my past experience. nt mentioning any1 now. so stop guessing.

HEY U, yeah U. i sae stop guessing. THERE U GO AGAIN. i know it !

haha ! jk. the end.

2008-01-12T21:04:00.000+08:00

INTRO

got many things to sae, yet seems lik no one to talk abt wif, so i decided to juz blog here. hmm, start wif a simple intro or short speech maybe. its 2008, nothing much special though, except the teachers were much more excellent than last year. i guess i reali hav to work real hard to go for those courses i want to study. ( dun ask me wad courses, coz i hav no idea )

something to lighten 1 be4 i start wif sad and emo stuffs ( main purpose was to complaint )

my shooting is getting better and better by the dae can. now i juz got to work on my "shake shake". new juniors are joining anderson basketball team, i guess i gt to learn how to communicate wif juniors, coz our level of thinking is different and sometimes i get annoyed by their spastic action. WELL, tt wasn reali the point.

English

miss lee is great man. she rocks can, though no angel looks or devil's body shape. but much better than miss yeoh. the homeworks she giv wasn taxing coz 5 daes allowance including 2 weekends are included.

Chinese

tt chen lao shi wasn reali as bad as rumour said la, guess rumour aren a reliable source of info. she quite gd so far except for the tack in T-shirt part. lols. boring ! moving on.

LOUSY AND TAXING TEACHER

the lit teacher, i forget his name. he wasn friendly at all. gav us SO many homeworks during the 1st lit lesson we hav. lets juz throw the book back at his face and say " u so clever, u do urself den tell us answer la." blah blah blah.

Presents

got carey's christmas present... A DUCK ! handphone keychain ....i guess maybe coz i gav the wrong info tt i love ducks..den she reali went to buy duck =.= anyway, audrey's present was even worst ! its a soft thingy, ( lik soft toy ) i asked wad was it, she said, put handphone de..-.- haha. so funny can. i wun use it though but i wun throw it away. my presents for them was more interesting ! i bought them a necklance each. audrey's was a necklance wif a letter A while carey's ......i dun wan talk abt it, un-needed talks will come in........
den next was fadz birthdae, so i asked most of the class to giv $4 for his present to buy a sports shoe.

UNHAPPI

my basketball team , i mean C boys la. we lack of teamwork, even wif my shooting skills, its reali nt enough. wad i hav to find my own space or try ways to "shake" into the right shooting spot ar.(lik the match at yck ) becoz i had lik training for 4 daes for 5 daes, i over exert myself and got fever and headache on fridae. i bet u guys didn notice coz i was trying so hard to act normal.

2dae

cca open hse, so i went to sck even though i wasn reali feeling well. reach sck abt 8. den i started playing basketball. abt 11 + the preformance start. den i was at the parade square the whole dae. pity i didn go to the hall to see choir, den i get to laugh at carey's big and long dress wif lipsticks on ( i think ?) i bet i will laugh till i tear. can imagine. haha ! den victoria came to ask me buy a badge( hello kitty -.- ) 1 dollar, so i bought. den after tt, ruiting came to sell me soft toys. tis time a little better kind of soft toy chain or something -.- 80 cents, i no change so bought 2. den i gav it to carey and audrey. coz i dun noe wad to do wif them -.- ....after sck, we went to causeway, thinking of eating soul garden for fadz birthdae celebration BUT
the total cost for 6 person + gst and all other charges. ITS $128 ++ !! wtf, warning, eat onli during weekdaes when there is student price !
so we went for piza hearts. cheaper..btw, bought fadz present. he choose it, he got it.

TTS it. some things i wan to sae, but thinkin of the un wanted pep talks. i for-go them..
BYE

2007-09-14T18:01:00.000+08:00

fridae was nvr one of my favourite days but feelings on fridae are usually mixed up. i hated the lessons on fridae but on the thought tt its saturdae 2moro makes me quite excited. typical fridaes are usually accompanied wif bright red class tee...morning workouts sort of interest me a little now. take 2dae as an example, i learnt a speech tt can be used to provoke arvin " ur boobs are rather disturbing". try saying tt and middle finger will be flashed. Lol.

followed by maths, mr leong came. i didn do my maths homework at all but partly because i dun noe how to do. anyway mr leong didn say anything abt it. everything went smoothly until mr leong asked me to answer a question again. u muz be thinkin tt i answered wrongly but surprisingly, i got it correct. speechless eh? haha.

REccEss-RINGING------!!! i started copying sci longman, wanted to enjoy the lovely song " INCONSOLABLE" while doin it but all i heard was my stomach rumbling. thinkin...thinkin...thinin...dashed! i took up my wallet and ran to the canteen. the next minute i was wif a plate of food. i think didn acty chew but more of devouring it. hey guys, come on, u noe i was bein funny rights. haha.

chinese! listening compre. lucky i dug my ears the night be4, all so clear and direct. hoorays to ivan ! though, there was something i shd admit but i think to avoid further trouble, i shall not say. lets keep it to ourselves kaes, larry, kevin and shao xuan . wahha.

science, the final finale of the dae. went to the com lab, my greatest regret was to not able to touch the keyboard. argh! lol. didn acty catch wad mrs dan was sayin the whole period. went to lala land for the short 1 hr, it wasn 1 hr...mrs dan fail her maths. she dun noe how to look at the time. releasin us at 1 thinkin tt 1 hr juz passed. haha.

after sck not fun liao. stayed in class until 3 be4 proceedin to the basketball court for video taking. while others went to boon how's hse to play. saddenin, wasted my precious time juz to take a video less than 1 minutes...retarded. LoL. wadeva lahs. i need to rush my tution homework for 2moro be4 i rest me mind and body. wahaha.

wahaha. hahaha. muahaha. comeon!! laugh lik me. bring laughter to every1.

to be continued..!!

2007-09-12T19:19:00.000+08:00

lets see, its been 6 days since the last post....acty i wanted to post yesterdae but damn blogger juz forbid me to log in. i had lots to say but due to stress and STM, i could not rmb. lets make a deal. give me 5 sec to recall.
oh ya, take tis time to enjoy my new found favourite songs : inconsolable and i want it that way.

inconsolable:

I close the door. like so many times, so many times before.

Felt like a scene on the cutting room floor

When I let you walk away tonight

Without a word

I try to sleep, yeah

But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me

A thousand more regrets unraveling, ohh

If you were here right now, I swear,I'd tell you this

CHORUS:Baby I don't want to waste another day

Keeping it inside it's killing me

Cause all i ever want, it comes right down to you

I'm wishing I could find the words to say

Baby I would tell you every time you leave

I'm inconsolable

I climb the walls

I can see the edge but I can't take the fall, no.I've memorized the number

So why can't I make the call?

Maybe 'cause I know you'll always be with me

In the possibility

CHORUS:Baby I don't want to waste another day

Keeping it inside it's killing me

Cause all I ever want, it comes right down to you

I'm wishing I could find the words to say

Baby I would tell you every time you leave

I'm inconsolable

Don't you know it baby

I don't want to waste another day

I'm wishing I could find the words to say

Baby I would tell you every time you leave

I'm inconsolable

i want it that way:

Yeah

You are my fire

The one desire

Believe when I sayI want it that way

But we are two worlds apart

Can't reach to your heart

When you say

That I want it that way

[Chorus:]Tell me whyAin't nothin' but a heartache

Tell me why

Ain't nothin' but a mistake

Tell me why

I never wanna hear you say

I want it that way

Am I your fire

Your one desire

Yes I know it's too late

But I want it that way

[Chorus]Now I can see that we're falling apart

From the way that it used to be, yeah

No matter the distance

I want you to know

That deep down inside of me...You are my fire

The one desire

You are

You are,

you are,

you are

Don't wanna hear you say

Ain't nothin' but a heartache

Ain't nothin' but a mistake

(Don't wanna hear you say)I never wanna hear you say

I want it that way

Tell me why

Ain't nothin' but a heartache

Tell me why

Ain't nothin but a mistake

Tell me whyI never wanna hear you say

(Don't wanna hear you say it)

I want it that way

I want it that way.

both songs are nice, i reali cant choose which 1 i lik best. i tried asking ppl to vote but it came back to the start eventually...

STORY:

i dun noe wads the point of goin to sck yesterdae. mainly because we had 3 hrs free period wif totally nth to do. pissed of by tt stupid badminton girl..asked me to shut up. -.-

yesterdae wasnt interesting at all. haha. idiots are spenting their precious time readin tis post.

2DAE:

1st period was geography, as boring as usual but miss wang caught me talking and asked a me a questionn that obvious ( i dun noe the answer ) difficult... guess it wasn my dae. okay, lets say tt its wasnt my dae for the past few daes counting back to 16 march 1994.

2nd period is english, heard news tt a australian teacher will be relieving( how to spell ? ) miss yeoh if she didn come. unexpectly, miss yeoh turned up in our class, with scrabbles and 1/1 class' bagde. it wasn cool or stuffs but at least she put in effort.

a few daes ago, i had a thinking. thinking tt god made human by mistake. resulting bad point and good point in every1. no 1 is prefect coz god did not put in effort to make humans. wadeva...

3rd period CE. not fun. not interesting. not gd. not bad. Lol. contradicting. followed by maths. acty compared 2dae and yesterdae, theres no difference in level of boredom.

hmm, nohing post liao. lik wad fadzly wld normally say " i dun noe the motive of tis post and i am tired". kkaes. byes !

TO BE CONTINUED...!!

2007-09-07T13:08:00.000+08:00

bein hardworkin isn a gd thing either. i lost my handphone.why? coz human is pure selfish...they refuse to leave things , tt aren theirs, alone.

selfish ppl shd juz die off.
tis time i lost my handphone but the feelin of sadness isn there, all thanks to my group mates hu keep taking my things and sayin they are lost. but i reali got to accept reality tt my handphone is as gd as gone. but i reali need contacts so den i wld still be able to contact u guys if needed. i wld lik to dedicate tis song to my beloved handphone.

althought my handphone doesn cost much but it certainly hav been part of my life for 1 yr 6mths. now tt i finally lose it, i learnt to cherish it but its seriously too late...so guys. cherish ur everything now. havin sore eyes tis mornin was juz a warning for me to not go to sck, if i didn go. my phone wld still be right here wif me. wads gone is gone la. so i wun let it affect me much.

2007-09-07T07:44:00.000+08:00

apologises for not posting for so long, juz tt the feel isn there. well, because of some matters, i think i shd return to bloggin. holidae is pathetic man, theres juz way too much homework. miss yeoh juz wanna cover the fact tt she have been rathr lazy and not givin us the homeworks required since term 1, so she juz hav to giv us all of it in 1 shot. so now we are seriously suffering from all the crushin done by homeworks. she herself might be enjoying a nice buffet breakfast, lunch and dinner at 1 shot.<>

opps, no time to continue alrdy. got to go to basketball but coach nvr come, why bother? hey young man/ladies out there, ivan is gonna be the youngiest NBA player in sinapore, so hav to train hard ! be4 i go, i wanna clarify something...i was juz kiddin abt bein NBA. i wanna be lawyr! btw, its a joke...so LAUGH!

WILL BE CONTINUED.........

2007-07-29T00:15:00.000+08:00

i dlted my 41th 42th and 43th posts as they are veri provking. since i chose to stop all tis nonsence so every memory of it shd be dlted. hmm, i sincerely wana apologise for all i did, i was too naive. but i wanna clear some misunderstandin here once and for all.

1stly: siying, i didn started callin u names lik samurai and so on. it was gerald hu started all tis, den we think veri fun so started callin u samurai but i didn noe callin u names wld land such a great impact on u. ppl call me carpet, mexican bull and so on but i gladly accepted the names and life still goes on. ask urself la, everytime is kevin shao xuan they all call u samurai den i will join in de.i was still thinkin of helpin u solve the matter between u and abdul, kindness comes wif nothing gd.if u dun believe can ask carey....

believe or not is up to u... dun keep sayin carey lik me coz she seriously dun. she nvr did and nvr will.

2007-07-24T17:02:00.000+08:00

THE GOOD WEATHER
previously i complained abt the bad hot, sunny weather. to think tt god acty heard my crys and decide to change the weather finally. the weather is so gd...okay okay, its gd when u are not in the air con room and its bad when u acty juz step out of the toilet after bathin.

2dae's tuedae. lessons followed with sci, eng, reccess, mother tongue, drama and music. as usual, sci was borin and quite hurried. but the fine weather made things a little better. while on the way to sci lab, i acty listened and talked to timothy, his quite alrite but maybe asked redundant questions. haha. its okay de la coz ivan's in a gd mood coz of the weather. den we hurried off to fetch the china pupils.

miss yeoh nvr come 2dae, den a teacher come to take off our lesson. the teacher was beautiful with the looks of a ang mo but was a little too fierce though. went through oral but i took it liao so nvm. reccess was borin too. mother tongue...horrible. write zou wen..sian arh. i kinda miss mrs lim. missin her sweet smiles and laughter, lame jokes and lousy drawings. most importantly shes a gd gd teacher. not sayin tt feng lao shi not gd but u will get a deeper feelins for the 1st teacher. soo..blah blah.

drama wasnt gd too, i was thinkin of something and got a little out of myself. i forgotten wad to do when our group had to perform, i forgot wad i needed to do and say. after tt, the whole dae seems bad too and i started beiin rude liao. wahaha. tts my attitude.after tt went to the farewell party, its fun and i wun let u noe wads fun. make you jealous wahaha. didn quite enjoy the photo takin session although got alot china GIRL pupil wanted to take pics wif me but larry got more...sad !! wahaha. nvm.

after tt went for IPW thingy...muz present 2moro...wtf !! den went back class play chinese chess as usual. play until half way den ruiting came in wif the bubble thingy, keep blowin at me and boon how until whole body sticky sticky. lOL. stupid ruiting...!! wahaha.

hmm. a handsome guy wifno brain = useless bum. so therefore i decided to work hard get gd results tis coming exams. i need some1 to make me do so, tian ning will be the 1. wahaha. she my bezz fren and she hopes i study hard so lets get started !! byes off to homeworks and i mean it.

2007-07-23T12:43:00.000+08:00

2dae is sundae...?? how can it be..i blinked my eyes and its sundae..?! woah times doesnt fly past, they zip ZaP and ZOOM. LOL. remind me of drama. i haven touch any of my homework yet. sad worh...! my mother coming home from malaysia 2dae.

later go fetch her liao den go HDB hub. coz my cousin join the BIO skin competition den we muz go support and vote her. Later she win liao den treat us!! hahahaha. tts it for 2dae, if got anything interestin den i post at night. byes......

2007-07-21T18:44:00.000+08:00

life is borin without goals.i achieved wad i wanted durin PSLE and wad i wanted was a laptop. after PSLE, i slacked my results are droppin...den comes to stamina, i was not fit at all when i came to anderson, my napfa was no hope. but after goin for many basketball trainins...i am proud to say tt i am fit alrite. my napfa 2.4km run timin wa 13.15min. got top 5 in class.

1st: fadzly ( the mirror of superman )

2nd: tian ning( muscle woman )

3rd: larry ( atheletic-ker?)

4th: abdul ( damn fast...chiong at the last min )

5th: me

6th & 7th: zhou sheng and anese ( unbelieveable )

7th: kevin ( haha, i finally win u...!! )

8th: timothy ( i think coz his behind kevin.)

hey i didn noe i could do so well, tts 1 of the greatest achievemnt i ever achieve. haha. hey ppl, those hu lost to timothy shd stop insultin him. coz of his looks, den evry1 started not likin him. well i think askin a lot question isnt a crime. so any1 hu says bad abt timothy is goin against me...!!

tokin abt goals, i totally dun hav 1 now. life is quite meaningless alrdy.hmm. i need some goals to spice up my life or some1 to giv me goals to achieve. i promise ruiting i would slim down and be fit few monnths ago. idid it okay...!! haha. cheers!haha. tts it, i am goin for my saturdae dinner. byes.

2007-07-21T09:06:00.000+08:00

come to think of it. can any1 answer my question? is it the past generation, the present generation or the future generation, which one wld end up destroyin earth?
the past generation: ppl in the past invented many things which are important and useful for us but in the process, they discovered something that harm the earth lik atomic bombs.

the present generation: now ppl in the present are usin atomic bombs to bomb each other. we are fellow humans, if theres no grudge between the animals and humans, den i dun understand why ppl love havin war. although i feel tt its alittle childish but i still think tt everybody is related to every1 in the earth. its lik u noe tis person hu noes tis person which noes tt person that noes tt person which ur cousin or somebody else. den we'll end up killin each other in a war...fun? rather not.

the future generation: ppl invented my things lik air con and stuffs, children tends to take things for granted lik me. we are livin in a comfort zone now and tt doesn't mean its foreva. nth is foreva is tis world. we are gettin lazy and lazy. earth is seriously doom!!

lets move on to the next agenda. tokin abt nth is foreva. i myself thinks tt love is not foreva too. we tend to hav many many crush on different ppl. its juz human nature isnt it?ppl get married and followed by divorce and death. quite suddenin.LOL. wadeva la lets live to the best we can. byes

2007-07-20T19:10:00.000+08:00

woah woah woah, so long never post liao. so sry guys. LoL. kk. i will post..!! hmmm....2dae is racial harmon dae!! den i borrowed arvin's traditional clothes..so big...and itchy. haha. nvm. den followed by maths and mother tongue. quite borin la. after tt was games! we played the dun noe wad ball thingy lik siao den earn alot points for 1/1. wahaha.

after tt went to 2.4km run, i thought i wld get lousy results as i am sick. but turns out differently, i got 13.25min okay!! LoL. get c. wadeva la. hmm. dun noe wad to post liao. let me think...nothing liao ma. so byes, next time sure post long long. haha.

2007-07-14T14:50:00.000+08:00

gosh, i thought i was turnin gd for goodness sake but i didn. i became gd to "some ppl" onli. but i treated others lik shyt. wad to do?? LOL. erm,so i goin say sry to those i hav offended but i jux wanna say tt:" u started all tis, yet i hav to end it for u. its juz not so fair, isn it?" a new term starts and i became more and more busy. i dun lik it. can i say tt i am slackin or rather be quite hard workin? i attented all the basketball cca's but in the end, i hav no time to do homeworks....they were all done in class. haix. can some1 tell me wad i can do ?

i realise tt i am not totally into chio bus. girls tt are pretty and nice are rare. its impossible to find 1 and keep her. so therefore, i shall gladly annouced tt i prefer cute cute girls. betta if the girl is a sporty girl. although i am tall but i dun lik girls hu are tall.haha. short short, cute cute, somemore veri sporty! excellent !!! woah.
hence, harshanna is definately not for me. wahaha.

i am at my mother's frens hse now. they havin gatherins. adults!! lOLs. nth betta to do. feel lik slpin now. oops, the baby is messin wif my laptop!! haha, his cute!! betta stop be4 my laptop spoils. byes for now.

2007-07-13T23:11:00.000+08:00

2dae is finally a fridae. can finally rest all i want liao, but my feet had suffered alot. blisters are formin all over my legs, damn disgustin. i veri tired liao. ppl lik colleen, pls stop barkin up my neck, its goin to break soon!! dun agitate me wen i am tired coz i bite !!! LoL

fridae 13, ppl say is a bad day but i think the opposite. its qite a gd dae acty. i met my pri 6 teacher outside my pri sck. she looks as pretty as ever. haha. den we met boon's so called "chio bu" in the MRT, but she looks...'okay'. haha blah blah blah. LoL. damn tired !! nth to post leh. anyway, the weekend is for fun FUN and FUN !! hav fun. byes, sry tis post is quite borin...